Life is a dream, you never know when it is going to end, but somehow you know it will.
So, I’ve come to the conclusion that when the baby is born we’ll have to leave the garden. I don’t want to leave the Garden. It’s been my home for almost 18 years now. Really. Oh by the way everyone my birthday is in 2 days, I thought I’d spring that little bit of information on everyone. Dec 22nd very important day. I don’t want any presents, but I am having a party. Oh after the C.A.T scans and all the tests it seems that they have come to the conclusion that the powerful magic used on me as well as overuse of GF’s that I have a deformity in my brain. Gee, I’ve never been so happy……brain deformity, yay. Anyways, back to the topic of discussion, I don’t want to leave the garden. Laina said that I shouldn’t take any missions and stay home with Aria. Really, I don’t want to give up my career or Aria and the baby. I’ve made it so far and to leave it now. Even if I do take missions what do they consist of? Nothing. Really after the war nothing has happened. Oooh, not another cat stuck in a tree, better call SeeD. I mean I’ve been called out for everything from stopping minor fights, to becoming a resident undercover “cop” in Galbadia for a week. Really, what would be the harm in me keeping my position at the Garden. I stay here 9 to 5 come home have a home life. It’s not like Balamb is a trillion miles away. I’m just so confused. I love Aria to death and as happy as I am to be having a baby, I’m scared. I wasn’t ready to have this baby. I didn’t even know that Aria thought she was pregnant until the results came back. I even know the night it happened. Thanksgiving, I thought ok, so the condom broke, no biggie, birth control will save me. Gee, I didn’t know I’d be part of the .3% that it failed for. I mean don’t get me wrong, I’m happy to be a daddy. I’m ready to put 110%, which is more that I can say for the birth control, into this baby. Boy, Girl. I don’t care all I know is that this baby is mine and I will love it more than anything. Well, I love Aria more than anything, so that will be 2 people who I love more than anything. You know what else makes me mad, the fact that everyone is like, uh, I’m worried about Seifer being a dad he was so irresponsible as a child. Then everyone focuses on when I was bad, when I used to push Zell down the front stairs. When I used to hurt people for fun. Yeah I’m the exact same person, I haven’t changed a bit. Gee, I’m glad to see you all have faith in me. I’m glad to know what you think of me. Whatever. I don’t care, I’m glad to call you guys “friends”. Friends that think I’m going to hurt my own child. Friends that think that I’m too irresponsible to take care of my own baby. Thanks. At least Aria thinks I’m going to be a good dad. My kid will think I’m a good dad, even if you guys don’t think so. Well that’s it for now. Have faith in me. I’m not everything you think I am.