Reflections
Let me reflect on this past semester.....
September:
I started out ok, doing my school work, and I was dating someone at the time (note to self, too far away to keep focus on work). I kept up with everything, and kept mostly on track. It was a good month for me.
October:
Things started going downhill, I wasn't concentrating on my school work, and my grades were showing it. I was still dating here....hence my problem.
November:
The beginning of November was tough, because I had to make some tough decisions here, which I'm still being persecuted for to this day, but it doesn't matter, because I can get past that. Then, something happened near the end of the month that changed everything...I met someone....well no, I met them at the beginning of the year, but I got to know this person better. I started doing better in school, and I was in a better mood much more often than I had been probably most of the year so far.
December:
By this month, I was really back into things, I knew school was my first priority, and I was doing much better. My focus was in the right place. I was happier than I had ever been, quite honestly. The truth is, it scared me a little at first, but then as I got used to it, I stopped fighting it, and from that point on, I just started glowing. I smiled so much, my face hurt. these were the first two weeks of December. As far as the last two weeks go, it's weird....I'm not sure what to do with myself, or what to think. I'm looking forward to next semester, but I'm not. And as far as my personal life goes, I'm not sure whether to be hopeful, or to be scared, or worried, or what.....but I suppose, as I tell myself often now, just take it one day at a time, and everything will be ok....I miss you....