it's as if god is trying to tell you something.
words cant explain this twisted sickness laying in my stomach. Ive never felt so much loss at one time. Everyone important to me, everyone I loved, and those who loved me, I hurt them. Staring at this computer screen seems like an eternity, where are my thoughts? I feel so disgusted, and yet there is no one to blame except me. I am too fragil for all this emotion, I break so easily. I feel so alone, and I know I did this. It breaks my heart to think I did this. Its strange how just when you thought you are able to run out of tears, they flood. Did those words come out of my mouth, they were just a drunken slur..it wasnt me. I dont deserve the people in my life right now. I have never felt hatred for my self. Maybe my mother was right when she said...it's as if god is trying to tell you something.