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I just can't stop crying. I can't get over that fact that Pie's dead, and every time I even think of her I just start crying. I had to sleep with my headphones on, which I NEVER do, because I couldn't handle my mind being empty enough to think of her. Add to that the fact that I go in in less than two weeks. I'm scared stiff. I don't know what's going to happen, and it's ruin so much of my life already. I was talking to mum about it the other day, and ended up telling her I would have rather had the physical pain of not having it done than the emotional pain of getting it done. Now there's this whole thing with Jon's parents, and I feel guilty about crying over MY stupid problems. It just feel like everything is falling apart around me.
Evanescence, Linkin Park, The Cure, and Nightwish screaming in my ears. Working on Planning project. The PERFECT thing to be thinking about right now, of course. A student help line. Wonderful.
Trying really hard to not write out any personal barbs, but I really want to. I want to scream at some people, I want to lash others, and some I want to kiss and hold and be held by. But those people keep overlapping, and in my mind, one moment I'm being hugged by someone and the next I'm just lashing them to a bloody pulp. I don't know what the hell's wrong with me.
Evanescence, Linkin Park, The Cure, and Nightwish screaming in my ears. Working on Planning project. The PERFECT thing to be thinking about right now, of course. A student help line. Wonderful.
Trying really hard to not write out any personal barbs, but I really want to. I want to scream at some people, I want to lash others, and some I want to kiss and hold and be held by. But those people keep overlapping, and in my mind, one moment I'm being hugged by someone and the next I'm just lashing them to a bloody pulp. I don't know what the hell's wrong with me.