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This entry will go from notsohappy to happy, be warned.
First, I realised I weight like, TEN pounds more than I thought I did. How's that for a self-esteem killer? I got to keep my clothes on for my appointment, but I still feel twitchy and wrong because she was touching me so much.
And Natasha's shrill voice plays in my head saying "You've got to get over this, people are ALLOWED to touch you." Um, yeah, I thought the whole point of feeling safe and right was NOT LETTING PEOPLE DO THINGS THAT MAKE YOU THAT WRONG. You can talk to me again when you don't say things that make me feel like the lowest pile of shit this world has ever seen.
Happy news time: I have a job, officially. Got paid in cash today as it was just a come-in-and-see-if-we-and-you-want-you-here day. It was fun,t her people are all really nice. John, one of the owners, is german, and speaks seven languages. We were speaking japanese to each other. He fed me fish and chips for dinner. Got paid....wait for it.....wait for it.....$35! Whoohoo! Yes, I'm a Dish Pig, but I got PAID for it! -dance dance dance-
First, I realised I weight like, TEN pounds more than I thought I did. How's that for a self-esteem killer? I got to keep my clothes on for my appointment, but I still feel twitchy and wrong because she was touching me so much.
And Natasha's shrill voice plays in my head saying "You've got to get over this, people are ALLOWED to touch you." Um, yeah, I thought the whole point of feeling safe and right was NOT LETTING PEOPLE DO THINGS THAT MAKE YOU THAT WRONG. You can talk to me again when you don't say things that make me feel like the lowest pile of shit this world has ever seen.
Happy news time: I have a job, officially. Got paid in cash today as it was just a come-in-and-see-if-we-and-you-want-you-here day. It was fun,t her people are all really nice. John, one of the owners, is german, and speaks seven languages. We were speaking japanese to each other. He fed me fish and chips for dinner. Got paid....wait for it.....wait for it.....$35! Whoohoo! Yes, I'm a Dish Pig, but I got PAID for it! -dance dance dance-