Sleep Deprived
And its all my fault. Its 4:43 and I havent gone to bed yet. The sun is starting to rise making it even harder for me to fall asleep. This is getting to be a serious problem. Ever since school got out I have watched the sunrise a total of 5 times because I havent gone to bed. Thats more times I have stayed up in the past three weeks than in my whole life. And my bed time these past few weeks? An average of about 2:30 in the morning. How is it I have been getting to work? No idea here. I think it is all catching up to me though, I have a monster headache, which is going to get worse, I can tell, the throbbing in my neck and upper back coupled with the shooting pains to my temples are growing steadily worse, but I cant go back and lay down and try to sleep, I've been doing that for the last four hours, listening to my cat purr in her sleep. About every half hour I get up and pace, or get a drink of water or warm milk(disgusting) and it hasnt helped. Another problem is whenever I lay down I always start thinking of Nate. I swear I wish I could just sear him out of my brain, well, the feelings I still have for him. How is it that he was such a jerk to me and yet I still care about him??? Ugh, I dont know. Ugh, I just want to say it over and over. Ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh UGH UGH!!!!!