i don't really know the circumstance, but i'm proud of you for telling the truth, abby. but here's the thing. now, you have to focus on yourself. it may seem like the backwards thing to do, but trying to make it right with everyone else will spread you thin. you want light and guidance? make some for yourself. easier said then done, maybe, but maybe not. sort through your life, find the things that really matter, that mean something, the things you love. don't put yourself into a category, put your actions into a category, and using that, see where you want to go. if you want to cleanse yourself, and improve your karma, and do what you love and be with people who love you, then do it. strive for that. if you want to drink, and smoke, and feel shitty, then do it. the only catch is, if you pick this, you can't ask for help. you have to find your way. focus on yourself. love yourself. it may take a long long time, but it will be the best thing you have ever done. essentially, you can wipe your slate clean at any time. it's all at your will. you can re birth yourself for the better, or the worse.
i apoligize if this sounds like some pat richardson 700 club spiel, but you know me well enough to know that that's not the direction i was going for. i just you to be happy.
you also may be wondering, what makes me so qualified to "preach" to you, well, i am almost directly quoting my therapist's words. so it makes me qualified by association. also, i love you and wish the best for you, so that makes me qualified too.
Liz, I want to thank you so much for everything you told me. I really am thinking about it. I want to actually do those things rather then read about doing them but sometimes I just feel like I don't have energy to do anything. I am going to try though, I think it helps that you care about me. Maybe that's your special way of giving me light?
Anyway, I know what you are trying to say and I love you for it so thank you. I hope we can actually talk soon.
but here's the thing. now, you have to focus on yourself. it may seem like the backwards thing to do, but trying to make it right with everyone else will spread you thin. you want light and guidance? make some for yourself. easier said then done, maybe, but maybe not. sort through your life, find the things that really matter, that mean something, the things you love. don't put yourself into a category, put your actions into a category, and using that, see where you want to go. if you want to cleanse yourself, and improve your karma, and do what you love and be with people who love you, then do it. strive for that. if you want to drink, and smoke, and feel shitty, then do it. the only catch is, if you pick this, you can't ask for help. you have to find your way. focus on yourself. love yourself. it may take a long long time, but it will be the best thing you have ever done. essentially, you can wipe your slate clean at any time. it's all at your will. you can re birth yourself for the better, or the worse.
i apoligize if this sounds like some pat richardson 700 club spiel, but you know me well enough to know that that's not the direction i was going for. i just you to be happy.
you also may be wondering, what makes me so qualified to "preach" to you, well, i am almost directly quoting my therapist's words. so it makes me qualified by association. also, i love you and wish the best for you, so that makes me qualified too.
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Anyway, I know what you are trying to say and I love you for it so thank you. I hope we can actually talk soon.
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i love you. let's get together soon.
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