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wow well the day started off nice. yesterday was amazing. brian came over at like 730 last night and we were in each others arms the whole time. it was quite romantic. then he went to leave at 11 but actuall y never left my driveway till like 1130 . it was like those movies where the two people just cant leave each other. it was really cute and sweet. well then there was today. i went to church and went to home depot. it is really pissing me off b/c my parents keep fighting and i am getting the vibe that the "d" word might some into the picture. i am really hoping that it doesnt. well i went to work at 4 and was off at 8 so i called brian and wehn he was at a party all day. you thats fine but there was this gurl there that is a how do you say "skank". ya i know that he would never cheat on me but do you ever get that feeling that something isnt right. b/c like when i called him he said he could not talk b/c"her" and this guy were over. and it kinda pissed me off. i mean i feel liike i am being hidden from people. like he is embarased or something to say that he is talking to his g/f or something. i just feel like crap. and it doesnt make it any better that he leaves in two weeks and we have not acually gone out on a date. we just try and find some time to see each other. it really sux. i mean like i have not been on a date in oevr a year. and the last time was with him. my mom keeps saying that he better have a nice date or something planned for us before he leaves. well i dont think that will happen. i think he will forget that he is going to be gone for 14 months. i mean it will be nice when he comes home every once and a while on the weekends but i just feel so left out sometimes. like idk. maybe it is just me and maybe i am over looking a bunch of stuff. but does anyone else this feeling. like they are being to told what is really going on and like an outsider.
well i am going to go. i will update later if by chance it gets any better.