spending a lot of my days thinking
hey ya'll
so life has been kinda difficult lately-I've been spending almost everyday thinking about things and the way things are. And its been really hard to have to face things and move on.
But...I was thinking about all the people that i have learned to love throughout my life(not talking about my family) and i was thinking about how all of it started and how each relationship ended.
Everything seemed to be kinda un-fair but then again life isnt fair.
And i have always found a point where i can move on from all of it..except this time
I have come to a place in my life and to a point where there is one person that i absolutely adore and when the time comes to let go..he'll still have a place in my heart...its like that whole first love thing except its more involved.
I was crying the other night b/c ppl always say,"boys will never understand girls and girls will never understand boys." and thats probably true when it comes to they're thinking... but not they're relationship with another person..
And the only thing i have known to say for the past year when ppl ask me about us is..."i dont know..i just dont understand it"
And thats the truth..i will never understand the relationship this guy and i have. I think thats the hard part about it..i never know what to expect and i never know where its going to lead me...
Its like..a person having your heart and you pretty much knowing that you're never going to really get it back but all you can do is sit and watch them break it b/c you dont want to be the one to end it.
So like i said..I've been doing a lot of thinking lately
And after talking to him about it..the only thing we've come to learn is that i will always have a place in his life if thats what i want and he knows that he will always have a place for him if thats what he wants...
so-after all that thinking..i ended up with the same thing i started with
except knowing that we will always be friends
but....it cant go on forever like that?
so---whats the next step in life??
all the love in the world,
tab
so life has been kinda difficult lately-I've been spending almost everyday thinking about things and the way things are. And its been really hard to have to face things and move on.
But...I was thinking about all the people that i have learned to love throughout my life(not talking about my family) and i was thinking about how all of it started and how each relationship ended.
Everything seemed to be kinda un-fair but then again life isnt fair.
And i have always found a point where i can move on from all of it..except this time
I have come to a place in my life and to a point where there is one person that i absolutely adore and when the time comes to let go..he'll still have a place in my heart...its like that whole first love thing except its more involved.
I was crying the other night b/c ppl always say,"boys will never understand girls and girls will never understand boys." and thats probably true when it comes to they're thinking... but not they're relationship with another person..
And the only thing i have known to say for the past year when ppl ask me about us is..."i dont know..i just dont understand it"
And thats the truth..i will never understand the relationship this guy and i have. I think thats the hard part about it..i never know what to expect and i never know where its going to lead me...
Its like..a person having your heart and you pretty much knowing that you're never going to really get it back but all you can do is sit and watch them break it b/c you dont want to be the one to end it.
So like i said..I've been doing a lot of thinking lately
And after talking to him about it..the only thing we've come to learn is that i will always have a place in his life if thats what i want and he knows that he will always have a place for him if thats what he wants...
so-after all that thinking..i ended up with the same thing i started with
except knowing that we will always be friends
but....it cant go on forever like that?
so---whats the next step in life??
all the love in the world,
tab