Aug 17, 2004 15:39
hi again...it decided to rain on my parade today. I havent driven in like 3 days, and im pissed. I want to just get in someones car and fly away..as fast as you can go. Somehow, when i'm in a car, its like a different world(unless your parents are driving, then its just boring). But, school sucks, wtf do you have to study for?? Its not like you're going to remember it in a month. But, in my opinion i think school should be an option b/c it pisses me off...i dont ever get to see my friends who are older or go to different schools b/c we're IN school all the time. Last night i was soooooooo like depressed or something b/c i just wanted to see this ONE friend for like 20 minutes..just me and the other person. i guess its true-the stongest of all warriors are these two-time and patience....even if they SUCK..which they do. I feel like some of the ppl that i've been friends with my whole life just fucked me over. Yes, thats what i meant.."it" fucked me over, ruined everything. just when i thought it couldnt get ANY worse, it did. My brothers moved out and went to school, which sucks b/c who is goign to get me out of all the shit i get myself into????? At least i have to one person who i could..and can always count on..Scott. No matter what, he seems to always be there, which is really comforting to know that you have a friend like that!! I love you Scott!! lol...but in all seriousness, the ppl we support hold us up in life..just remember that!! :) I talked to this guy for awhile and then one night..i was talking to him..and he said something and i refused to belive it..there was no way he would do what he just said. It sucked b/c i really cared for him, but life will change really soon. Yeah..im sure you're getting bored reading this..but its only just begun. It was kinda funny today b/c one of my friends found out she was pregnant, and even though she didnt want to be..of course..she was glowing b/c she realized ..even though shes young..shes having a baby. Even if she is young, i think she'll be a great mom, she is a great person. But, isnt high school GREAT..like..for instance, me being pregnant, and the father being another girls bf..??? life is a vicious circle.and NO im not really pregnant..its just a rumor. crazy isnt it, just when you become happy again, life throws shit at you from all directions. i guess thats the whole "fun" of life. But..im gettign bored and impatient so, ill end it with this...Challenges are what make life interesting; overcoming them is what makes life meaningful..
-a friend