work, sleep, friends, zack, and everything...
so i haven't slept well in like 3 weeks. :-/ .... last night i was so tired but i got home and got ready for bedbut couldnt fall asleep.. a repeat from the previous night.. there is to much on my mind and my bed hurts to lay in.. im never comfortable.. its either bc im too picky, i have back and neck problems, or i need a new mattress. nevertheless i wont be asing or pestering for a new one anytime soon..
ya also woke up aound 10 times... then my alarm didnt end up going off ths morning whch ment when finally did wake up rushed to get to work only to fnd out kenny forgot was workng at nine or just ddnt show up so went home and got a sweatshrt then came back to work.. BLAH
i've been working pretty much everyday from 9-6... its mucho boring no one eever comes in the store and summer reading gets really boring really fast.. i've read my first two books but not the other...which i will probly be starting today
've been sick for three or four days now.. havent been eatng properly due to work, my lack ofmoney and my mom nott buyng groceries..
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hung out with julie yesterday watchedd donnie darko for the first time in years.. good movie..wee also ate broccli pizza...YUMM!! =) then went to friendlies with a bunch of people... mucho fun!!
i've been thinking about e-mailing mr smith like he told me i could if i needed anything over the summer break...i've been just driving around feeling crappy alot lately..i never want to go home anymore and when i am i dont feel right or happy. i had 8-10 break downs anxiety attacks or whatever you call them this summer... but i still didnt e-mail him bc idk it felt like i was just being dramatic.
anyway i am at work now..a ll by myself..sneaking on the comp bc there is nothing to do.. and its raining which means no one is gonna come into the store today.. anyway.. im so extremely bored...
last night after friendlys with people i just drove around for like a half hour.. i dreaded going home.. then when got home guess scared joe and val... just went n my room. and got ready for bed..
next week wll be ok i hope.. thats when have 14 days off from work bc i'll be n FL, NH and NYC. hope that wll be fun.. hope now that im 17 my mom wll let me walk the beeches n florda by myself... just need to get away...AHH..
I've kinda realized one of the reasons why i am always ashamed of everythinig i do, regaurdless of wether or not it impresses thepeople i am usually trying to impress..(mom and dad).. its mostly bc of a few family members who as a kid always made me feel crappy and made fun of me for everything i did , all the shows watched, the music i listened too, the kidsi dated, the kids i hung a around with, the clothes i wore, the actors i liked, the places i liked to go, Everything.. the way i acted, the way i looked, everythihng...
zack and i are doing well as far as i kno.. my breakdowns were taking a toll on us... or at least i thought they were.. but he said that he would stick with me through all these tough times.. it means so much to know that he cares.. a few times when i have been crying he stays with me all night to comfort me, hold me and tell me everything will be ok... even when he has to leave at 530am to go to work.. hes the best...
idk what else to say.. im gonna go now.. bye
ya also woke up aound 10 times... then my alarm didnt end up going off ths morning whch ment when finally did wake up rushed to get to work only to fnd out kenny forgot was workng at nine or just ddnt show up so went home and got a sweatshrt then came back to work.. BLAH
i've been working pretty much everyday from 9-6... its mucho boring no one eever comes in the store and summer reading gets really boring really fast.. i've read my first two books but not the other...which i will probly be starting today
've been sick for three or four days now.. havent been eatng properly due to work, my lack ofmoney and my mom nott buyng groceries..
blah
hung out with julie yesterday watchedd donnie darko for the first time in years.. good movie..wee also ate broccli pizza...YUMM!! =) then went to friendlies with a bunch of people... mucho fun!!
i've been thinking about e-mailing mr smith like he told me i could if i needed anything over the summer break...i've been just driving around feeling crappy alot lately..i never want to go home anymore and when i am i dont feel right or happy. i had 8-10 break downs anxiety attacks or whatever you call them this summer... but i still didnt e-mail him bc idk it felt like i was just being dramatic.
anyway i am at work now..a ll by myself..sneaking on the comp bc there is nothing to do.. and its raining which means no one is gonna come into the store today.. anyway.. im so extremely bored...
last night after friendlys with people i just drove around for like a half hour.. i dreaded going home.. then when got home guess scared joe and val... just went n my room. and got ready for bed..
next week wll be ok i hope.. thats when have 14 days off from work bc i'll be n FL, NH and NYC. hope that wll be fun.. hope now that im 17 my mom wll let me walk the beeches n florda by myself... just need to get away...AHH..
I've kinda realized one of the reasons why i am always ashamed of everythinig i do, regaurdless of wether or not it impresses thepeople i am usually trying to impress..(mom and dad).. its mostly bc of a few family members who as a kid always made me feel crappy and made fun of me for everything i did , all the shows watched, the music i listened too, the kidsi dated, the kids i hung a around with, the clothes i wore, the actors i liked, the places i liked to go, Everything.. the way i acted, the way i looked, everythihng...
zack and i are doing well as far as i kno.. my breakdowns were taking a toll on us... or at least i thought they were.. but he said that he would stick with me through all these tough times.. it means so much to know that he cares.. a few times when i have been crying he stays with me all night to comfort me, hold me and tell me everything will be ok... even when he has to leave at 530am to go to work.. hes the best...
idk what else to say.. im gonna go now.. bye