It's compromise that moves us along
Valentine's Day has passed. I've never been one who looked at the holiday as anything more than a sham. I was at the grocery store the other day and passed the floral department. It was a mad house with people (guys actually) struggling to get the last of the available flowers. It's pretty funny seeing people (guys!) buying things at the last minute. I'm not lonely at the moment. Me and Eric are still talking and I'm pretty confused about him. He drives me insane, literally I think. My friend Tina is having very similar problems with her guy(s). I use plural because she has an ex that won't go away. It just seems whenever we go out, some kind of drama happens. Don't get me wrong, I actually really like going to bars and drinking. I know I sound like a lush saying that. But I like the environment where I can run into people I know, have some fun, release some steam from the work week, and relax. Some people go about releasing steam in other ways. Drinking doesn't have to be everyone's thing. But its mine and I probably acquired that when I was away at school. When I moved back home and became a bit of a recluse, I was very depressed and couldn't handle the severe life change of always having friends to hang out with to hardly any at all. I was so lonely and sad for a year and a half. Now I feel good again. I feel like I've matured quite a bit and I've gotten my shit together.
I also used to think that all I needed was to find a guy, settle down, and I would live happily ever after. But for me, that's not so true. I had a boyfriend for a long time before and I don't remember that being the answer to all my problems. All it was, was another set of problems to deal with. The same with dating, but you can always pick up and leave since you are only just dating. I've been talking to the same guy for nearly three months. It's rocky, to say the least. But I like him a lot and for now we are just talking.
I wonder if I should be doing more with myself. I'm going to be 25 in three months. I'm getting closer to 30 (I know its five years away, but its coming). And I wonder what I will be doing then. I wonder what I will be doing by May!!
I also used to think that all I needed was to find a guy, settle down, and I would live happily ever after. But for me, that's not so true. I had a boyfriend for a long time before and I don't remember that being the answer to all my problems. All it was, was another set of problems to deal with. The same with dating, but you can always pick up and leave since you are only just dating. I've been talking to the same guy for nearly three months. It's rocky, to say the least. But I like him a lot and for now we are just talking.
I wonder if I should be doing more with myself. I'm going to be 25 in three months. I'm getting closer to 30 (I know its five years away, but its coming). And I wonder what I will be doing then. I wonder what I will be doing by May!!