give it up
so...the tom thing (the new guy i'm dating) isn't working out. he stopped calling me regularly, and we've hung out like twice in the last month. worst of all, i have no explanation for his sudden behavior change. probably because he wasn't looking for anything serious with me to begin with, and when i started even thinking of hinting that i did, he started to pull away. typical.
i told him saturday night at work that he was really blowing it with me, but since we were working we couldn't talk about it, yet here it is, 9:30 monday night and no call yet to explain or ask me why. he probably doesn't need to know why, because he knows what he's been doing...and now i guess this means it was definatly intentional.
so...i'm depressed lately, this adds to it, but school starts in a week and i'll probably be too busy to give a shit. lets hope!! lately i feel so god awful lonely its rediculous!! the other night i started crying because i really just wanted to lay down and hug a guy. pathetic!!! hahah
i'm getting a new puppy in the spring, i'm getting a shihtzu most likely...something i can carry around...i need one that i can keep with me, as a sort've unconditionally loving little companion haha. fuck being a cat lady. i'm gonna be a "toy dog" lady.
i told him saturday night at work that he was really blowing it with me, but since we were working we couldn't talk about it, yet here it is, 9:30 monday night and no call yet to explain or ask me why. he probably doesn't need to know why, because he knows what he's been doing...and now i guess this means it was definatly intentional.
so...i'm depressed lately, this adds to it, but school starts in a week and i'll probably be too busy to give a shit. lets hope!! lately i feel so god awful lonely its rediculous!! the other night i started crying because i really just wanted to lay down and hug a guy. pathetic!!! hahah
i'm getting a new puppy in the spring, i'm getting a shihtzu most likely...something i can carry around...i need one that i can keep with me, as a sort've unconditionally loving little companion haha. fuck being a cat lady. i'm gonna be a "toy dog" lady.