wow. yesterday sucked...another day...here we go...

[seethatstar]

yesterday, after picking up bill from school, i just took him home and i came home. no shower, no need. hung around all day watching tv... cleaning... being bored. waiting for bill to call. no call. nope. argh. my worst pet peeve, EVER, is someone saying their gonna call, or saying that we're gonna hang out for sure, and then they dont call. AAAHHH!!! i seriously cannot handle it. i don't mind in the slightest bit that he didnt want to hang out...why would i mind that he just wanted to hang out with the guys? no big deal at all! but he shoulda just told me that. instead he just didnt call at all. not cool. so after i was already crying all afternoon because i woke up from a nap with tears in my eyes and they just didnt stop, i cried more. a lot more. i drove down to the esplanade and sat for a bit to chill out. then monica called and i went to her house. smoked a bowl, felt a little better. but then i came home and saw my st.patricks teddy bear that bill gave me and i cried a bit more. im worried about him and his friends right now, they're slipping and i dont want to watch it happen. i care too much.

i watched pirates of the carribean then legally blonde (borrowed from monica). alone. wow.

::sigh:: fuck... more tears. DAMMIT! and bill is at his grandmas today workin'...i work 3-9... lost.

my mom is picking me up shortly to go to tripple A to sign the focus into my name and to get my own insurance policy. here goes $800! fuck growing up. fuck it.