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okay, what the fuck happened? i don't know what the hell is going on. lauren is upset and i don't know why exactly. this is making me a little upset and worried for her. lauren just doesn't get upset. i think we all realize that she is not the over-emotional one. when did lauren stop talking to me, too?
on another topic. christmas. you have to understand that i LOVE christmas. everything about it. the stupid songs we all have heard a million songs, the lights, even those people who wear the jingle bell necklaces. so when my parents threatened to disown me and told me not to come home for christmas i was really devastated. but, christmas eve my mother called and told me to come home so we could work shit out. so i did. (my parents actually took back all of my gifts to so me that i was not being rewarded for my transgressions) my parents and i faught till after midnight before calling a truce. yet, my father was somewhat shocked when i did not just sit there and listen to his yelling and apologize for what ever wrong i did to him. i stood up for myself. told him that i knew that i had messed up, was more dissappointed in myself than he was,and i had not completely ruined my life. i had a setback; that is all. no matter what anyone else thinks about it, i will do just whatever i want to accomplish with my life. i can and i will. anyone who feels that i do not have the personal integrity or strength can go hang themselves.
christmas day my dog oppie decided to leap off my parents 10ft. high porch for some reason i can not imagine. she never did shit like that. she broke both of her growth plates in teh front legs. two specialist later, i had to decide between a $7000 surgery that would only temporarily fix the fractures and would leave her in pain or putting her to sleep. so, friday i put more Oppie to sleep. it was the only time she had ever faught me about going into a vets office. it sucked. last night i left a message for melissa to make sure the dogs went out and made her cry. today was the first day taht i did not look for her around the house at some point. so, it is better.
joe and megan want to get me a new puppy which i am refusing. anyway, oppie is out of pain and i know that she had a damn good life in the time i had her.
other things are okay. i even have a date for new year's eve and have lost about 13 pounds.
ps.
i want to know what is going on with lauren. (from her. no one else)
i want c jo to talk to me.
i want a drink.
that is all.
on another topic. christmas. you have to understand that i LOVE christmas. everything about it. the stupid songs we all have heard a million songs, the lights, even those people who wear the jingle bell necklaces. so when my parents threatened to disown me and told me not to come home for christmas i was really devastated. but, christmas eve my mother called and told me to come home so we could work shit out. so i did. (my parents actually took back all of my gifts to so me that i was not being rewarded for my transgressions) my parents and i faught till after midnight before calling a truce. yet, my father was somewhat shocked when i did not just sit there and listen to his yelling and apologize for what ever wrong i did to him. i stood up for myself. told him that i knew that i had messed up, was more dissappointed in myself than he was,and i had not completely ruined my life. i had a setback; that is all. no matter what anyone else thinks about it, i will do just whatever i want to accomplish with my life. i can and i will. anyone who feels that i do not have the personal integrity or strength can go hang themselves.
christmas day my dog oppie decided to leap off my parents 10ft. high porch for some reason i can not imagine. she never did shit like that. she broke both of her growth plates in teh front legs. two specialist later, i had to decide between a $7000 surgery that would only temporarily fix the fractures and would leave her in pain or putting her to sleep. so, friday i put more Oppie to sleep. it was the only time she had ever faught me about going into a vets office. it sucked. last night i left a message for melissa to make sure the dogs went out and made her cry. today was the first day taht i did not look for her around the house at some point. so, it is better.
joe and megan want to get me a new puppy which i am refusing. anyway, oppie is out of pain and i know that she had a damn good life in the time i had her.
other things are okay. i even have a date for new year's eve and have lost about 13 pounds.
ps.
i want to know what is going on with lauren. (from her. no one else)
i want c jo to talk to me.
i want a drink.
that is all.