To Sawyer, From Freckles: A Lost Mix Tape
This is an imagined mix tape for lost_land , made by Kate for Sawyer, after she left the barracks in 'Eggtown'.
Sawyer,
I've never really been good at goodbyes. What happened this morning is something I might regret for the rest of my life, though the more I'm honest with myself, knew was bound to happen. You were right. There is absolutely nothing waiting for me back home but handcuffs.But staying in that house, under false pretenses of happiness, both of us knowing that I can never be what I need to be would have been worse. The worst thing in the world right? You have no idea how badly I wish that two broken pieces could make a whole one, or how much I wish I could fix what's been wrong for God knows how long. Or that I could by some magical power make you understand every little screwed up thing about me, but I can't, and for that I am really, really sorry. But I did make you a tape...it's the best I can do Tex.
Freckles
Free Bird - Lynard Skynard
(Kate's internal need to run is a major reason she doesn't stay at the barracks. She doesn't think she is capable of changing, even for Sawyer.)
If I leave here tomorrow
Would you still remember me
For I must be traveling on now
'Cause there's too many places I've got to see
But if I stayed here with you,girl
Things just couldn't be the same
'Cause I'm as free as a bird now
And this bird you cannot change
Ohohohohohhhhh
And the bird you cannot change
And this bird you cannot change
Lord knows I can’t change
Heart of Stone - Cher
Beneath the white fire of the moon
Love's wings are broken all too soon
We never learn
Hurt together, hurt alone
Don't you sometimes wish your heart was a heart of stone?
We turn the wheel and break the chain
Put steel to steel and laugh at pain
We're dreamers in castles made of sand
The road to Eden's overgrown
Don't you sometimes wish your heart was made of stone?
Alone - Heart
Till now I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you
And now it chills me to the bone
How do I get you alone?
How do I get you alone?
You don't know how long I have wanted
To touch your lips and hold you tight
You don't know how long I have waited
And I was going to tell you tonight
But the secret is still my own
And my love for you is still unknown
Alone
Daughters - John Mayer
(Kate's way of explaining to Sawyer a bit of her past and that her behavior isn't always his fault. In my mind the reason he decides to tell her about Clementine was after listening to this song lol)
Oh, you see that skin?
It's the same she's been standing in
Since the day she saw him walking away
Now she's left
Cleaning up the mess he made
November Rain - Guns N Roses
When I look into your eyes
I can see a love restrained
But darlin' when I hold you
Don't you know I feel the same
'Cause nothin' lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it's hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain