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if i had the money i would fly myself out to san francisco for the weekend. i need to get away. i feel restless i feel like i need to be in the middle of nowhere and just scream at the top of my lungs. like i need to just take a deep breath and inhale fresh air. i feel like im suffocating. i need a change of pace. i need to get out of ny for a few days. not to familiar mass or the accessible part of nj. somewhere beautiful and nothing like an east coast city. instead im broke and stuck and feeling the pressure of needing to be better at art, love, life... than i can be right now. i dont feel so charming or witty or talented and im not feeling like i have much to offer... i need to stop and restart myself.