(no subject)
I'm annoyed. I'm annoyed with people not listening to me, I'm annoyed with people saying "oh you'll get this stuff too one day" when I know I won't, because I don't ask and I don't take advantage of people, I'm annoyed with being told I'm ruining my life, I'm annoyed with people thinking I don't know how to do anything, I'm just fucking annoyed.
I hate that I'm stuck in a limbo - I'm not getting married yet, I don't have kids, I'm not planning on being in school for the rest of my life, I don't think that a family is a death sentence, I don't use people - I feel like I don't fit in with anyone anymore. I can't worry about a job yet, because I still have one more semester to go. Because Sean's going on to school, I don't know where I'm going to be in a year. I'm tired of being left out and taken advantage of, but I know that it'll never really stop. I just wish I knew where I was going in life - I have absolutely no idea. I feel like Sean's the only one I can really talk to anymore, because everyone else just rolls their eyes at me. Everyone else either thinks I'm ruining my life, I've got it made, or that someone else is more important. And what's worse, is that sometimes I just don't know anymore.
I hate that I'm stuck in a limbo - I'm not getting married yet, I don't have kids, I'm not planning on being in school for the rest of my life, I don't think that a family is a death sentence, I don't use people - I feel like I don't fit in with anyone anymore. I can't worry about a job yet, because I still have one more semester to go. Because Sean's going on to school, I don't know where I'm going to be in a year. I'm tired of being left out and taken advantage of, but I know that it'll never really stop. I just wish I knew where I was going in life - I have absolutely no idea. I feel like Sean's the only one I can really talk to anymore, because everyone else just rolls their eyes at me. Everyone else either thinks I'm ruining my life, I've got it made, or that someone else is more important. And what's worse, is that sometimes I just don't know anymore.