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Expendable:
Not worth salvaging or reusing; Not strictly necessary; dispensable.
Have you ever felt like you were an expendable friend? Like you were always walking on eggshells with someone because any little thing you do to annoy them could cause them to say 'screw you, i have plenty of other people i could hang out with'.
Like it wouldnt really make a difference to them if you stopped talking, because you weren't that important? Or that you were easily replaced? Or that there are many more people they'd rather hang out with than you?
Of course there are plenty of people I could and would love to live without in this world. But none of them are my friends.
I love my friends to death. and each of them means something different and special to me that no one else in the whole world could ever compare to. They are a necessary part of my life. And not just 'friends' as a whole. Every single friend I have is necessary to my day, start to finish.
I hope they all know this.
Because I would never want to make anyone feel like an expendable friend.
because it's really just no fun.
and i know i'm just being a crazy.
but still. this is how i feel and whether or not this is all true.
i still feel it.
ugh