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i dont know what made me do it.... but i was going through all my old relationships in my head. and i was thinking about arthur wu, and how much of a sucky girlfriend i was to him for that month or whatever when we were going out. i always forget about him when im thinking about guys ive been with, because for some reason im a slut, and i think of past "relationships" as bedpost notches, or at least i used to think of them that way until recently.... arthur was probably one of the sweetest guys i will ever meet. he completely respected my decisions and did everything that i wanted because he wated to make me happy.... he got me that stuffed animal, which i wish i had kept as a reminder that boys are not all assholes.
i remember one day, probably in november or decembr of sophmore year in high school... i still had no idea who i was. i was still innocent in so many ways. i was still the product of an alternative education, before prep school corrupted me. i was sitting on the windowsill, and on my left was arthur wu, representing all that is good in men, and on my right was connor ryan, representing all that is bad in men. they had both come up to me and sat down next to me voluntarily. this was the first time guys had ever paid this much attention to me, besides the times connor would try and do shit to my nether regions during lunch, without even asking. so yea, i was sitting there, arthur was vying innocently for my attention while connor was grabbing some part of my body, and naturally i was more attracted to connor. why. whyyyyyyyyyy is it that girls like assholes.... why do we make life difficult for ourselves.
ethan reminds me of connor, and twiggs reminds me of arthur.. ethan thinks with his dick and i am through with him, emotionally and physiclly... i love twiggs so much, looking back at the situation with arthur vs. connor, i would choose arthur any day. and i choose twiggs today... i choose to be happy... i choose to be a good girlfriend, and not cheat, and not think of sex as a conquest. im really no better than ethan at this point, but that will change. my new years resolution is gonna be to be faithful to the man i love even though hes fucking oceans away. fuck.........d.fasd,jhguofgyqeqgglqewd fuck fuck fuck i hate everything about this situation.
i remember one day, probably in november or decembr of sophmore year in high school... i still had no idea who i was. i was still innocent in so many ways. i was still the product of an alternative education, before prep school corrupted me. i was sitting on the windowsill, and on my left was arthur wu, representing all that is good in men, and on my right was connor ryan, representing all that is bad in men. they had both come up to me and sat down next to me voluntarily. this was the first time guys had ever paid this much attention to me, besides the times connor would try and do shit to my nether regions during lunch, without even asking. so yea, i was sitting there, arthur was vying innocently for my attention while connor was grabbing some part of my body, and naturally i was more attracted to connor. why. whyyyyyyyyyy is it that girls like assholes.... why do we make life difficult for ourselves.
ethan reminds me of connor, and twiggs reminds me of arthur.. ethan thinks with his dick and i am through with him, emotionally and physiclly... i love twiggs so much, looking back at the situation with arthur vs. connor, i would choose arthur any day. and i choose twiggs today... i choose to be happy... i choose to be a good girlfriend, and not cheat, and not think of sex as a conquest. im really no better than ethan at this point, but that will change. my new years resolution is gonna be to be faithful to the man i love even though hes fucking oceans away. fuck.........d.fasd,jhguofgyqeqgglqewd fuck fuck fuck i hate everything about this situation.