Talking to myself
Surprise...I am still alive!
I have no clue if anyone even checks this any longer, but I just wanted to let anyone who does know that I am still alive. I'm not sure how, but I am.
I'm worse off than I have ever been, but I am taking control and 2018 WILL be my year! I am sick of just hanging out here on the side of the cliff, slipping backwards, moving forward, slipping backwards...I will finally pull myself up over the edge and get myself out of this mess I created. It's not going to be easy, but then again, it never has been. While I have never given up, I've gotten close, but it's time to end this war and finish what I started so long ago.
When I began my journey in 2006 I couldn't believe where I was, but now I'm 100+ pounds heavier than that, so I have an even bigger road ahead of me. I have even more challenges to overcome than I did in 2006. I'm so angry I wasted my 20's and now I'm half way through my 30's and I'm wasting those too...so this has to STOP. I'm so sick of my life passing me by. There is so much I still want to do, need to do, so I need to get this weight off me once and for all.
I spent so long putting someone else before myself and it did nothing but hurt me - mentally and physically. I spent time too much time getting over that and now I'm ready to put myself first.
As the amazing Linkin Park says:
I will never be anything til I break away from me
I will break away, I'll find myself today
I have no clue if anyone even checks this any longer, but I just wanted to let anyone who does know that I am still alive. I'm not sure how, but I am.
I'm worse off than I have ever been, but I am taking control and 2018 WILL be my year! I am sick of just hanging out here on the side of the cliff, slipping backwards, moving forward, slipping backwards...I will finally pull myself up over the edge and get myself out of this mess I created. It's not going to be easy, but then again, it never has been. While I have never given up, I've gotten close, but it's time to end this war and finish what I started so long ago.
When I began my journey in 2006 I couldn't believe where I was, but now I'm 100+ pounds heavier than that, so I have an even bigger road ahead of me. I have even more challenges to overcome than I did in 2006. I'm so angry I wasted my 20's and now I'm half way through my 30's and I'm wasting those too...so this has to STOP. I'm so sick of my life passing me by. There is so much I still want to do, need to do, so I need to get this weight off me once and for all.
I spent so long putting someone else before myself and it did nothing but hurt me - mentally and physically. I spent time too much time getting over that and now I'm ready to put myself first.
As the amazing Linkin Park says:
I will never be anything til I break away from me
I will break away, I'll find myself today