this life
I looked within myself today
And all I saw was black
I wondered where my soul had gone
Did I deserve it back?
The sun was gone, it had faded too
Was this really happening
Or was it just my point of view?
Did this darkness just envelope me
Was it a slow and steady creep?
I don’t recall the life I had
Before I was mired in this deep.
No, I don’t think there was
A life I lived before this one;
That thrived out in the open places
Filled with fresh air and bright sun.
This life is filled with casualties,
Some of my own making.
There were innocent bystanders
But most were purposely taken.
Oh I could justify each one of them
And look you in the face.
As I casually take you by the hand
And lead you to your fate.
The questions left to ponder
The thoughts left unsaid,
Are all these evil, darkest moments
Born in my heart
Or in my head.
kmc