there and back again, twice
I usually don’t post song lyrics just for the sake of song lyrics, but today was an unusual day for me. I had to drive to town about 30 minutes away this morning to take my neighbor’s cat to the vet for her. (long story) my sister came with me. It was helpful due to the cat, but the woman talks constantly. 30 minutes there. In the waiting room. 30 minutes home. This afternoon, I had to go back to that same town to pick up my brother-in-law to take him to a doctor’s office. And she talked constantly. The problem is that she doesn’t just talk, she goes on and on and on and on and you get the idea. So, on the way back (another 30 minutes) I put in my favorite mix cd and turned the volume way up. She had no choice but to sit in her seat and not talk. Several songs played while I listened and drove, but then a song came on and I turned that volume up even more and started singing my heart out.
Live a life less ordinary
Live a life extraordinary with me
Live a life less sedentary
Live a life evolutionary with me
Well, I hate to be a bother but
It’s you and there’s no other, I do believe
You can call me naïve, but
I know me very well at least
As far as I can tell and I know what I need
That night you came into my life
Well it took the bones of me,
You took the bones of me
You blew away my storm and strife
And shook the bones of me
You shook the bones of me
By the way I do know why you stayed away
I will keep tongue tied next time
Live a life less ordinary
Live a life extraordinary with me
My face had said too much
Before our hands could even touch
To greet a hello
So much for going slow
Well, a little later on that year
I told you that I loved you, dear
What do you know -
This you weren’t prepared to hear
I’m a saddened man, I’m a broken boy
I’m a toddler with a complex toy
I’m falling apart since the ambush on your heart
That night you came into my life
Well it took the bones of me,
You took the bones of me
You blew away my storm and strife
And shook the bones of me
You shook the bones of me
By the way I do know why you stayed away
I will keep tongue tied but
Honey understand
Honey understand
I won't make demands
Honey understand
Honey understand
We could walk without a plan
Honey understand, honey
Honey understand
I won’t rest in stone all alone
Honey understand
Honey understand
I’m all ready to go
But you already know
Live a life less ordinary
Live a life extraordinary with me
If I could name you in this song
Would it make you smile and sing along
This is the goal-- to get into your soul
If I could make you dance with joy
Could that be the second chance to coy
The 'bird in hand' I would need to help you understand
That night you came into my life
Well it took the bones of me,
You took the bones of me
You blew away my storm and strife
And shook the bones of me
You shook the bones of me
By the way I do know why you stayed away
I will keep tongue tied next time
*sigh. By time I hit the bridge of all those “honey understand’s” I had tears rolling down my face and could no longer sing. This song has a special meaning and though I can hear it, and even sing with it, for some reason today that was not the case. I was just struck with this overwhelming sense of complete sadness. The next song about did me in. I was thankful that she was mad and sitting sideways so she could stare out her window letting me know she was pissed by giving me her “disapproving back position.” lol.
When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
Tears stream down your face
when you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I
Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
By then I had pulled up to the doctor’s office. I threw the van in park, hit pause on the cd and wiped my face with my hands real quick and said to them “I’m just gonna sit here in the van, y’all go ahead.” she looked at me and started to say something but I just looked away. I think she was surprised that she hadn’t noticed that I have feelings. Or maybe she was surprised I wasn’t going in with them. i'm not sure which. They got out and I turned on my cd again and the next song:
Gravity, is working against me
And gravity, wants to bring me down
Oh, I've never known what makes this man
With all the love that his heart can stand
Dream of ways to throw it all away
Whoa, gravity is working against me
And gravity, it wants to bring me down
Oh, twice as much ain't twice as good
And can't sustain like one half could
Its wanting more that's gonna send me to my knees
Oh, twice as much ain't twice as good
And can't sustain like one half could
Its wanting more that's gonna send me to my knees
Whoa gravity, stay the hell away from me
Whoa gravity, has taken better man than me
Now how can that be
Just keep me where the light is
Just keep me where the light is
C'mon keep me where the light is
C'mon keep me where the light is
Now, these are all songs that I love. And they don’t usually affect me the way they did this afternoon. But my oh my. I felt as if my heart was being ripped from my chest while I was still awake and watching it happen. I was devastated. Old memories. Old hurts. Fresh pain. Funny how that works huh?
Here’s to happy thoughts tomorrow……..
life less ordinary - carbon leaf
Fix you - coldplay
gravity - john mayer
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