What a week, what a week!!!

[seekertom]

Hey journal whats shakin? well all I can say it has been one hell of a week, and not the good kind. All through the week I've been tested to either pass a test, tell someone off, beat the S&^t out of someone(yea I was that close), and just plain say f&^k it to everything and give up... excuse my language just real bad week. I kno its a test from god to determine if I'll do whats right or whats easy and if I'll run away or stand strong. If it sounds confusing you'd have to be living my life to understand. Its not as bad as some ppls, which helps me get through, but that dont make it hurt any less. But the worst things this week happened on fri and sat... I didnt break 20 mins at the CC meet, got close but not close enough and then tryed to have gud time at game. But that got ruined for two reasons, we LOST miserably!! and when I was providing backup fo a friend to hook up with a girl at my skool, she has her parents there and not only that starts hugging onto someother guy which not only almost pushed him over the edge(no one would ever want that b/c he is unstable and will beat the hell out of someone at whim, almost like me but I'm more under control,being completely serious) and got me mad b/c his life is messed up right now and this is just another rotten thing to add to his list.
You kno my b-day coming up on tues, and to me just doesnt feel like it or celebrating it. HC coming up and I dont feel like going b/c the S&*tstorm keeps getting worse but gotta stay strong till the end of the test, god let it end soon!!! Well I gotta go lj, so wish me luck
Peace