yes no yes no...
What do you do when you realize what you want and you can't have it? I have finally figured it out. i finally have clarity and all i want is to just stop what im doing and embrace it. But won't i be a failure if i don't continue at wmu? I just don't know what to do. I am so burned out from school that i can't bring myself to realize its important. I can't make myself focus. I just am completely lost and feel like i'm drowning slowly in this path i don't even fully realize. I didn't make the right choices. I didn't make the right turns. I put myself here and i have no idea how to get myself out. I don't know how to see something, want it and than take it. I don't know how to handle the the look of disapointment from my family. I just want something so bad. I just want to believe in my life. I want to live and feel it in every part of who i am. I want to finally be what i'm supposed to. and i just don't know how to step up and do it. I don't know how to fail at one thing to flourish in another. I'm just confused as fuck. I feel like i'm caught in these colliding worlds and ready for battle. So what do i do?