Gaaah
now that i haven't talked to her in about three days I don't know what its worse talking to her and knowing i'll never be more than a friend or completely missing her...but even if i wanted to i couldn't expect her to let me talk to her after what i said to her. if she ever really wants to talk to me again she would i have confidence in that...if she really cared about me she would be having as hard of a time being away from her as i am being away from her.