Welp
when all else fails i always come back here. In one sentance i lost everything that kept me happy in this world. I lost Ruby...entirly i'm not going to make the same mistake i did with Katie...although i really already have...i just don't want to have to fight against another guy..I love her but i really can't try to fight to be a better guy than arron. I don't have any fight left in me. I'm suprised i even have life left in me. I miss her so much...I would never have hurt her like aaron hurt her...but i can't fight anymore i have to accept that i'll never be the better guy...there will always be one asshole that everyone likes more...i tried to stay friend with Ruby but every time i talk to her i remember and the memories hurt to much to keep in contact with...i would do anything to be what we were...but ruby doesn't want me anymore...well thats my life as of now...i always post alot when i'm depressed so you can expect more for a while...