[Sometime later]seeing_only_redDecember 17 2009, 20:46:35 UTC
Miss them...?
[Itachi lowers his eyes a little, thinking seriously about Pain-san's question, and how to respond.]
I think...I should miss them more than I do. I still feel like I'll go home and they'll all be there.
Even though I know they're gone.
It doesn't make sense to me, because I feel like...I'm on a school trip and they're at home waiting for me.
[His voice is softer, and he's not sure how to explain everything he feels. It's still so confusing for him--being here in this place, with an older Sasuke, and all these people who know him, but he doesn't know--but Itachi has tried to understand, to take in everything he's been told and shown and create some kind of sense from it that he can use.
It's hard, when he can still remember his mother's face so clearly, hear her words telling him to do his homework before he convinces her to let him go off and play with Sasuke. They don't feel like they've died at all, and it makes it even harder to accept--makes his chest clench when he thinks of it, because they don't feel like they're gone--and he wants to miss them as much as Sasuke seems to, but it's so abstract to him.]
Maybe it's because...they aren't dead for me. They don't...die for a while...
Sasuke knows how they died...he saw it, I know he did...but I don't know anything, really.
Maybe even when I'm older, I don't miss them. I don't know. But I should, shouldn't I? They should feel like they're...dead...because they are.
[He gives that smile that hides so much, because he can't show how much not missing them hurts.]
Thanks, Pain-san. I know I'll be big again soon, so you don't have to worry, and then I can protect you too.
[Itachi lowers his eyes a little, thinking seriously about Pain-san's question, and how to respond.]
I think...I should miss them more than I do. I still feel like I'll go home and they'll all be there.
Even though I know they're gone.
It doesn't make sense to me, because I feel like...I'm on a school trip and they're at home waiting for me.
[His voice is softer, and he's not sure how to explain everything he feels. It's still so confusing for him--being here in this place, with an older Sasuke, and all these people who know him, but he doesn't know--but Itachi has tried to understand, to take in everything he's been told and shown and create some kind of sense from it that he can use.
It's hard, when he can still remember his mother's face so clearly, hear her words telling him to do his homework before he convinces her to let him go off and play with Sasuke. They don't feel like they've died at all, and it makes it even harder to accept--makes his chest clench when he thinks of it, because they don't feel like they're gone--and he wants to miss them as much as Sasuke seems to, but it's so abstract to him.]
Maybe it's because...they aren't dead for me. They don't...die for a while...
Sasuke knows how they died...he saw it, I know he did...but I don't know anything, really.
Maybe even when I'm older, I don't miss them. I don't know. But I should, shouldn't I? They should feel like they're...dead...because they are.
[He gives that smile that hides so much, because he can't show how much not missing them hurts.]
Thanks, Pain-san. I know I'll be big again soon, so you don't have to worry, and then I can protect you too.
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