inconsistent me : searching for consistency

[seehersmile]

God be with her.
let her know shes not alone.
calm her fears, dont let her be afraid.
let her know that she is loved beyond all other love.

i dont understand why things have to change.
i dont understand the end of 2006.
why the people i love the most in this world must leave,
intentionally or unintentionally
now or soon.

i dont understand your will
i dont have a clue what you have planned for my future.

please put peace in my heart.
about her.
about him.
about me.

i want to be okay with you.
i want to rest peacefully with the faith that all ends well that begins with You.
heal my heart God, and please let this be the last time it breaks.
i'm seeking you in these situations.
just let me see your face..

i wish i could fix everything.
put all of the pain and worry on my own body.

i want to live with no regrets.
yet i'm held down with so many burdens.
help me to trust you..
help me to hand them over at your feet.

i know i'm not in the christmas spirit this year.
but things are so hard.
we feel let down.

we're selfish God,
i know that you are all we need.
thirst
hunger
protection
rest
peace
joy
happiness
contentment
comfort
forgiveness
&
love

remind me please.

i love you, and i want to be thankful for you.
i want to be thankful of you for sending us your son,
our savior.

its just so hard this year.
i'm not perfect.
but i'm trying.

just please dont be let down by us and our ungrateful spirits.
don't take it to heart, God. we are just stone cold.

remind me, please.
♥