goodbye 2k5..
2005:
its funny how much more you grow up each year you're alive.
you learn..through someone loving you, to love yourself.
you learn, in losing someone you love, that you inevitably lose a part of yourself.
i've learned, that God made our hearts not to be surrounded by barriors, and walls that we build up in fear. But that he made our hearts to be embraced by the warmth of true love. Gods love. and to spread that love to those around us. i've learned that, as with anything, love itself has risks.
risks that cant be avoided. God didnt give us our tiny little hearts to keep to ourselves, selfishly hidden in our feeble human bodies. He gave them to us so we can fill them with love. A love that can grow, and mature, and spread, and someday take over everything.
lesson number one: a heart filled with too much love breaks itself.
God is love. He created Love, He intended Love, He embraces Love, He is Love.
HOWEVER God didnt create love, to create pain.. He didnt intend love, to hurt. He doesnt embrace love that doesnt glorify him.. and He isnt the kind of love, that breaks your heart.
scratch lesson number one
Lesson number one (revisited): a heart filled with too much of the wrong kind of love breaks itself.
you see. others dont break your heart. you only break it yourself.
selfishness leads to broken hearts.
putting love for someone else, over love for your creator.
that..is pushing way the ultimate love.
a love that cannot be found in any boy or girl.
only in Him.
stop looking around you.
look up
learning to love God above anyone else you care about.
its important.
its ultimate.
priority.
loving God leads to loving yourself.
dont get me wrong. i've yet to master this.
LETTING GO:
God will catch me.
i have to have faith.
leaps of faith.
i dont jump.
i fall.
so i'll fall
with faith
that he
will catch me.
1.REALIZE:
he cares for me more than anyone else on this earth could.
2.BE AT PEACE:
with the fact that i am Gods child.
that i am loved by I AM.
and thats all that matters.
3.HAVE FAITH:
that he has something huge in store for me.
that he has someone out there waiting for me.
someone created for me.
that he has wonderful plans for my education.
for my career.
for my family.
for my friends.
for me.
these are not resolutions.
yet merely resolutions
because i'm tired of re screwing up.
of course i've learned more than 2 lessons this year. my fingers are just tired.
in 2006 i want to replace happiness with joy, heartache with soul-repair, and hopelessness with faith.
thats what i really want.
And this is important too.. :)
God gave us TANGIBLE LOVE.
thank goodness. or i'd be dead.
he gave us eachother.
and 2005 would have not been nearly the same without my family, my church and my best friends.
i love all of you so much.
and when i say i love you.
i mean I LOVE you.
with a love that God teaches me to love with.
a true, fufilling, WONDERFUL love!
and it means so much that i am loved back.
:)
thanks for everything.
you are a such a blessing.
goodbye 2k5.
hello 2k6!
♥
its funny how much more you grow up each year you're alive.
you learn..through someone loving you, to love yourself.
you learn, in losing someone you love, that you inevitably lose a part of yourself.
i've learned, that God made our hearts not to be surrounded by barriors, and walls that we build up in fear. But that he made our hearts to be embraced by the warmth of true love. Gods love. and to spread that love to those around us. i've learned that, as with anything, love itself has risks.
risks that cant be avoided. God didnt give us our tiny little hearts to keep to ourselves, selfishly hidden in our feeble human bodies. He gave them to us so we can fill them with love. A love that can grow, and mature, and spread, and someday take over everything.
lesson number one: a heart filled with too much love breaks itself.
God is love. He created Love, He intended Love, He embraces Love, He is Love.
HOWEVER God didnt create love, to create pain.. He didnt intend love, to hurt. He doesnt embrace love that doesnt glorify him.. and He isnt the kind of love, that breaks your heart.
scratch lesson number one
Lesson number one (revisited): a heart filled with too much of the wrong kind of love breaks itself.
you see. others dont break your heart. you only break it yourself.
selfishness leads to broken hearts.
putting love for someone else, over love for your creator.
that..is pushing way the ultimate love.
a love that cannot be found in any boy or girl.
only in Him.
stop looking around you.
look up
learning to love God above anyone else you care about.
its important.
its ultimate.
priority.
loving God leads to loving yourself.
dont get me wrong. i've yet to master this.
LETTING GO:
God will catch me.
i have to have faith.
leaps of faith.
i dont jump.
i fall.
so i'll fall
with faith
that he
will catch me.
1.REALIZE:
he cares for me more than anyone else on this earth could.
2.BE AT PEACE:
with the fact that i am Gods child.
that i am loved by I AM.
and thats all that matters.
3.HAVE FAITH:
that he has something huge in store for me.
that he has someone out there waiting for me.
someone created for me.
that he has wonderful plans for my education.
for my career.
for my family.
for my friends.
for me.
these are not resolutions.
yet merely resolutions
because i'm tired of re screwing up.
of course i've learned more than 2 lessons this year. my fingers are just tired.
in 2006 i want to replace happiness with joy, heartache with soul-repair, and hopelessness with faith.
thats what i really want.
And this is important too.. :)
God gave us TANGIBLE LOVE.
thank goodness. or i'd be dead.
he gave us eachother.
and 2005 would have not been nearly the same without my family, my church and my best friends.
i love all of you so much.
and when i say i love you.
i mean I LOVE you.
with a love that God teaches me to love with.
a true, fufilling, WONDERFUL love!
and it means so much that i am loved back.
:)
thanks for everything.
you are a such a blessing.
goodbye 2k5.
hello 2k6!
♥