Ahhhhhhhhh!!!! As always, I kind of squealed when I saw you updated and thankfully I was already kind of prepared for how awful this one would feel for Blaine. Warning, I am now going to wordvomit all of my thoughts and feelings, ok? And also probably come to conclusions that are completely wrong, just because I can :D
I take back all my almost-squishy feelings for Jesse in the last part even though somehow I can understand what's going on in his weird brain. I think he just thinks Blaine is wrong for Kurt and he still sees Kurt as the starry eyed kid who idolizes him and who he needs to groom and make perfect because he does care for him but that's all mixed up with wanting him to be the best no matter what. He's right about Kurt being different from Blaine, and in some ways, similar to Jesse, but Kurt is nowhere close to being a carbon copy of him. Kurt does care about doing some things right. He can be ruthless, but he will always have boundaries because his moral compass is much more like a decent human being's. I'm pretty sure Kurt didn't sleep with Jesse because nothing Jesse mentioned/hinted at to stoke Blaine's rage were beyond what we already saw in the last part (although even if he did, I'd be hard-pressed to think badly of him given the circumstances). Jesse didn't even actually lie, he just presented it in the worst possible way so that Blaine could reach his own erroneous conclusions and finally leave Kurt alone, which, to Jesse, would be best for Kurt.
I don't know if it'll stick and I guess I could see it both ways, but I do think Dalton is a much better fit for Blaine. In canon, ND is chaos, but there's a chance for self-expression there, Dalton is rigid, but Blaine in canon still managed to find his own niche, VA is just not as good a fit for him because he'll never be, or want to be, that ruthless. And in order to love someone, you don't have to agree with every single thing they do or act the same way, you just need to understand as much as possible, and then live your life the way it makes you happy. With Kurt at Carmel and Blaine at Dalton, I think they both get what they want.
In conclusion (finally), I feel really sad for Blaine, I want to slap Jesse upside the head even if I sort of understand why he's doing what he's doing, but my heart mostly breaks for Kurt, who didn't even appear in this part, but who I think is devastated over Burt, has to rely on Jesse and thinks that Blaine's left him forever and wants nothing to do with him any more.
Lexie's comment reminded me, in my wordvomit, i completely forgot to mention how touching I found Blaine's dad's scene. It was really nice, kudos for a moving scene that wasn't over the top in any way. "Blaine," he said solemnly, his hand stilling in Blaine's hair, "You were always the son that I wanted. I'm sorry that, somewhere along the line, I stopped being the father that you deserved." I legit teared up a little at this line.
I am the worst person ever for responding to this so late (real life has been a fanged, ferocious beast the last two weeks), especially because absolutely everything that you wrote was so incredibly, amazingly, spot on. Seriously--do you want to take over for a while, because I'm amazed at how perfect all of your conclusions sync up with what I've got spinning around in my head for this story.
I take back all my almost-squishy feelings for Jesse in the last part even though somehow I can understand what's going on in his weird brain. I think he just thinks Blaine is wrong for Kurt and he still sees Kurt as the starry eyed kid who idolizes him and who he needs to groom and make perfect because he does care for him but that's all mixed up with wanting him to be the best no matter what. He's right about Kurt being different from Blaine, and in some ways, similar to Jesse, but Kurt is nowhere close to being a carbon copy of him. Kurt does care about doing some things right. He can be ruthless, but he will always have boundaries because his moral compass is much more like a decent human being's. I'm pretty sure Kurt didn't sleep with Jesse because nothing Jesse mentioned/hinted at to stoke Blaine's rage were beyond what we already saw in the last part (although even if he did, I'd be hard-pressed to think badly of him given the circumstances). Jesse didn't even actually lie, he just presented it in the worst possible way so that Blaine could reach his own erroneous conclusions and finally leave Kurt alone, which, to Jesse, would be best for Kurt.
I don't know if it'll stick and I guess I could see it both ways, but I do think Dalton is a much better fit for Blaine. In canon, ND is chaos, but there's a chance for self-expression there, Dalton is rigid, but Blaine in canon still managed to find his own niche, VA is just not as good a fit for him because he'll never be, or want to be, that ruthless. And in order to love someone, you don't have to agree with every single thing they do or act the same way, you just need to understand as much as possible, and then live your life the way it makes you happy. With Kurt at Carmel and Blaine at Dalton, I think they both get what they want.
In conclusion (finally), I feel really sad for Blaine, I want to slap Jesse upside the head even if I sort of understand why he's doing what he's doing, but my heart mostly breaks for Kurt, who didn't even appear in this part, but who I think is devastated over Burt, has to rely on Jesse and thinks that Blaine's left him forever and wants nothing to do with him any more.
Man, I love this fic so much ♥
Reply
Reply
You win. Queen. <3
Reply
Leave a comment