in darkness you are all I see
Lately I haven't been able to concentrate on anything. I think my grades have slipped in every class. You might think, well you're still making A's, so shut up, but it matters a lot to me. I just pray that I can finish out the year with any serious falls.
I hate being alone.
I hate that you think it's ok to continue this with me for so long and then, "all the sudden," allow your guilt to catch up with you and decide you can't deal. Why do you have to be such a complete jerk? You should know that you can't just say things like you have been doing, leading me on, and quit like it doesn't matter. Besides, if anything you've told me was true, if you meant what you said, you can't have wanted to quit it anyway. I would have preferred to wait for you, even if it were at my own expense, to have half of your heart. Just waiting and not knowing, always having that glimmer of hope, is so much better than terminating it.
I hate missing you so much.
I love brown eyes. And you.
I wish you knew that, because I don't think you do.
I hate contradiction and hypocrisy, which define my life at the moment.
I hate being alone.
I hate that you think it's ok to continue this with me for so long and then, "all the sudden," allow your guilt to catch up with you and decide you can't deal. Why do you have to be such a complete jerk? You should know that you can't just say things like you have been doing, leading me on, and quit like it doesn't matter. Besides, if anything you've told me was true, if you meant what you said, you can't have wanted to quit it anyway. I would have preferred to wait for you, even if it were at my own expense, to have half of your heart. Just waiting and not knowing, always having that glimmer of hope, is so much better than terminating it.
I hate missing you so much.
I love brown eyes. And you.
I wish you knew that, because I don't think you do.
I hate contradiction and hypocrisy, which define my life at the moment.