Jul 10, 2007 10:19
Well fuck.
Why is love so important?
My basic thesis on good relationships is that they should be based on mutual appreciation and respect instead of love, because, well, love is a bastard - and sometimes he gets distracted when life is rough and flies away for a coffee break. A relationship built on trust and respect is a relationship conducive to love, so that even if the nasty boy runs off, he'll find it impossible not to return.
I am currently in a relationship with one of the best people I've ever known. She appreciates all the secret things that make life beautiful, and she knows everything thats important. She finds ways to be stunningly mature while simultaneously having the eye of a 5 year old. She's THE MOST fun to be with. and she's beautiful.
But under my stress I got distracted from our relationship of mutual appreciation, and she suspected that my love was gone, or maybe wasn't even there to begin with - which was wrong, and it upset me considerably(though likely not nearly as much as her). Suddenly our interactions became awkward and I spent myself trying to convince her that I loved her, but she couldn't believe it, and after a few days he got bored and wandered off. Once i told her out of frustration that I loved her(when it wasn't true) - and only once, I think thats a crappy thing to do and as soon as I realized it I stopped. I wanted our relationship to be back the way it was only a week ago, so I decided that we needed to discuss this because avoiding communication always results in sour relationships and people hating each other.
The talk was awful. I think she might have broken up with me.
What the hell is the big deal about love, internet?
What kind of a reason is that to break up with someone?
I'm going to work.