12:17pm
i'm taking a break from Statistics, from graphs, from the frustrations surrounding me in this enclosed campus, this institution,...i'm taking a time out damnit because i am hungry and emotional distraught..just a little.
have you ever missed someone really bad? it wasnt like they werent yours anymore. he didnt stop loving you. you didnt break up. its the complete opposite, except he lives 200 miles away. the telephone just doesnt do justice to your relationship. its as if the distance is just eating away the summer that you two built.
i keep telling myself that i know better. shit we talked for 2-3 hours Saturday night. we talked about everything...us, distance, him, me, being young, temptations, love, food...we are great! we fill understand what it means to be in a duprass. we are in love.
so..feeling well secured, why did i crawl up into a ball last evening and cry. why did i call him and tell him that i was confused and scared and weak and i didnt know if i could do this. why hasn't he returned my many attempts to tell him that i wasnt scared anymore but that i was just really sleep deprived when i confessed that one second of weakness. why are cell phones- not mine, teasing me with calls for other girls. damnit!. we had such an empowering conversation, then i had to fuck it up.
i miss him.
he has no idea.
im supposed to see him friday.
its been three weeks.
friday seems forever away.
have you ever missed someone really bad? it wasnt like they werent yours anymore. he didnt stop loving you. you didnt break up. its the complete opposite, except he lives 200 miles away. the telephone just doesnt do justice to your relationship. its as if the distance is just eating away the summer that you two built.
i keep telling myself that i know better. shit we talked for 2-3 hours Saturday night. we talked about everything...us, distance, him, me, being young, temptations, love, food...we are great! we fill understand what it means to be in a duprass. we are in love.
so..feeling well secured, why did i crawl up into a ball last evening and cry. why did i call him and tell him that i was confused and scared and weak and i didnt know if i could do this. why hasn't he returned my many attempts to tell him that i wasnt scared anymore but that i was just really sleep deprived when i confessed that one second of weakness. why are cell phones- not mine, teasing me with calls for other girls. damnit!. we had such an empowering conversation, then i had to fuck it up.
i miss him.
he has no idea.
im supposed to see him friday.
its been three weeks.
friday seems forever away.