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So I've made the move to Dreamwidth. I'm not very good with change, tech-wise. It might take me a little while to get used to! I haven't updated my LiveJournal for about six months (standard) but if anyone would like to add me over there, my username is still see_anotherside. I've started the importing process over on Dreamwidth, so hopefully it'll feel less like a blank slate over there soon.
I guess it's time for a life update. Some good, some meh. Bullet points:
Been with Chris for five years now. Happiness! He's such a good partner and we've kept each other going through some big things. Rant time though - I have to admit I'm pretty frustrated by this point that he hasn't proposed yet. I'm trying not to be that person, I'm not pushing or nagging, just bringing it up maybe once a year to see if it's on the cards. We've talked about it properly several times and he says it'll happen, he just wants it to be a surprise. Thing is, it's been a few years of waiting for the question now and I'm starting to get insecure. We discussed all of this again a while back and it's still in limbo. It's just, I'm ready. We're awesome together and he's the one. I want to take that step and commit, and yes, have a little wedding. But since he's not in any rush, I'm trying not to think about it much. It's difficult when family/friends/coworkers mention it regularly, and I end up upset but trying not to show it. It's not something I really dwell on because I'm generally very happy and we're at the point in our relationship where we are settled and marriage won't really change things. But I do want it, and when I think about it, the "why not?" starts to get to me.
We've just made an appointment to see a mortgage advisor in a few weeks, and will be looking to buy this summer/autumn. Can't wait for that either, we've been renting the same tiny house for four years now and it's felt like time to move on up for a long time. We have a good deposit saved now, and it's exciting.
Fibroid stuff has escalated and I now have to take medication to help prevent bad bleeding every month. We had talked about planning a baby around the end of this year but that may not happen now. I'm waiting for a hospital appointment to see what they suggest. I might have to have surgery again.
I've thought about training to be a counsellor for years and this week I finally took the first step towards it. It is only a little introductory course, not a qualification or anything, but I think it's just what I need because I've never been sure that it's going to be something I'm good at. This will give me a feel for it, without any huge fails. The first week was enjoyable so I'll take it from there. I just want to do something more worthwhile in life, and I've always liked listening to people and supporting them, so I keep coming back to the counselling thing.
I'm kind of despairing over the world, though. Politics and people and the state of everything... it's so scary and depressing. Over the last few years I've really starting paying attention and getting a little more involved rather than ignoring it and thinking it doesn't matter, because it does. It absolutely does. The more people open their eyes and minds and get angry about this stuff, the better. We might see some change. Hopefully, anyway. I know there's a positive, rational movement out there but I still get more cynical all the time.
I guess it's time for a life update. Some good, some meh. Bullet points:
Been with Chris for five years now. Happiness! He's such a good partner and we've kept each other going through some big things. Rant time though - I have to admit I'm pretty frustrated by this point that he hasn't proposed yet. I'm trying not to be that person, I'm not pushing or nagging, just bringing it up maybe once a year to see if it's on the cards. We've talked about it properly several times and he says it'll happen, he just wants it to be a surprise. Thing is, it's been a few years of waiting for the question now and I'm starting to get insecure. We discussed all of this again a while back and it's still in limbo. It's just, I'm ready. We're awesome together and he's the one. I want to take that step and commit, and yes, have a little wedding. But since he's not in any rush, I'm trying not to think about it much. It's difficult when family/friends/coworkers mention it regularly, and I end up upset but trying not to show it. It's not something I really dwell on because I'm generally very happy and we're at the point in our relationship where we are settled and marriage won't really change things. But I do want it, and when I think about it, the "why not?" starts to get to me.
We've just made an appointment to see a mortgage advisor in a few weeks, and will be looking to buy this summer/autumn. Can't wait for that either, we've been renting the same tiny house for four years now and it's felt like time to move on up for a long time. We have a good deposit saved now, and it's exciting.
Fibroid stuff has escalated and I now have to take medication to help prevent bad bleeding every month. We had talked about planning a baby around the end of this year but that may not happen now. I'm waiting for a hospital appointment to see what they suggest. I might have to have surgery again.
I've thought about training to be a counsellor for years and this week I finally took the first step towards it. It is only a little introductory course, not a qualification or anything, but I think it's just what I need because I've never been sure that it's going to be something I'm good at. This will give me a feel for it, without any huge fails. The first week was enjoyable so I'll take it from there. I just want to do something more worthwhile in life, and I've always liked listening to people and supporting them, so I keep coming back to the counselling thing.
I'm kind of despairing over the world, though. Politics and people and the state of everything... it's so scary and depressing. Over the last few years I've really starting paying attention and getting a little more involved rather than ignoring it and thinking it doesn't matter, because it does. It absolutely does. The more people open their eyes and minds and get angry about this stuff, the better. We might see some change. Hopefully, anyway. I know there's a positive, rational movement out there but I still get more cynical all the time.