I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down.
My sister is getting worse and she's not even on the treatment yet. I was supposed to visit her today, but I accidentally fell asleep and so my mom just left without me. I'm mostly home alone now because my mom and uncle are always there. She might have to be in the hospital for Christmas.
You never fucking realize how much you love and care about someone until their lives are put in danger. I want to cry, but crying doesn't change anything. Crying won't make her better and crying won't make me any happier.
Despite the fact that I am no longer excited for Christmas (the idea of spending Christmas Day in the hospital with my sick sister isn't exactly uplifting), I'm going to start watching the Christmas movies I planned on watching last week. I don't want to waste away my days being upset. I hope my sister gets through this ok, I really do. She was saying that if she makes it through this she is turning her life around.
"Well I never pray, but tonight I'm on my knees, yeah. I need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me."
.xo.