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today has just been a crappy day..everything has been going wrong..i cant stop thinking about someone, yet i know i shouldnt!..seeing him again, completely changed everything...i dont know if it was for the better or worse...god i miss him...not just him, but everything he was to me...my best friend, mostly my everything except for lauren at the time...i miss talking for hours about nothing, and hanging out in my basement..i miss him looking at me, and telling me everything would be alright, and me believing it..i miss how much he cared for me, and how with him i felt whole...i miss laughing and running down kettering halls...i miss our poems and letters about broken love..i miss having him there when i cryed..i miss him wiping my tears away...i guess i just miss how he loved me...
my life Will never be the same, or anywhere near it...i changed..he changed...everything changed....but i cant help to not think about what or where we would be right now in life...how things would be differnt..how happy i would be...
and then the strangest thing happened yesterday...bert asked me "do you believe in soul mates, and that there is only one person we should truely be with?"..and just as i was about to say no...Wonderful Tonight, by Eric Clapton...and i started balling my eyes out...and to everyone that might sound dumb...but to me..it was beautiful.....<3
my life Will never be the same, or anywhere near it...i changed..he changed...everything changed....but i cant help to not think about what or where we would be right now in life...how things would be differnt..how happy i would be...
and then the strangest thing happened yesterday...bert asked me "do you believe in soul mates, and that there is only one person we should truely be with?"..and just as i was about to say no...Wonderful Tonight, by Eric Clapton...and i started balling my eyes out...and to everyone that might sound dumb...but to me..it was beautiful.....<3