Somethings wrong

[seductive_pain]

When you hear a guy in your class..
talk "behind your back"
but you hear him anyways
because hes right beside you
and you think awful things..
things you've never thought before..
like putting a gun to his head..
and threatening his life...
theres something wrong with that
when your a sweet girl ALL your life..
you never ever think bad things about people..
you never want to hurt anyone or anything..
all of a sudden out of no where..
you wanna shove your pen in a latin girls neck
and watch the blood squirt out..
while she falls on the floor
screaming for her life..
somethings wrong with that..
when you never been in a fight..
and you cry every time you have an argument..
with your mother or your brother..
and all of a sudden you have these thoughts...
with no remorse at all..
theres something wrong with that..
you sit in your friends car..
trying to explane it...
and he says theres nothing wrong with you..
and you get out and tell him to leave..
without a hug or a "c u lata" ...
theres something wrong with that..
all my life..
ive never thought about hurting someone or something ever ..
and if i did..
i thought about it again..
and cried my eyes out....
but now ..
i dont cry out of sadness..
out of thinking such horrible thoughts..
about people who have no influence in your life..
theres something wrong with me..
i dont know what it is..
my teacher saw it before i did..
she knows somethings wrong with me..
and now.. before she even mentioned it to me..
i noticed it too..
theres something wrong with me..
something i can't quite understand..
i love my boyfrined to death..
and now.. i believe hes the only one..
that can hold me..
and make me feel better..
not even my friends or my family..
no one..
i dont believe i am capable of getting better this time..
i dont think this depression streak will go away..
i hope it will..
but i dont know..
theres something wrong with me..