First of all *picks up his fragile Julie and pulls her back together* No matter what, you'll always have me <3 ~
Okay. Now to begin the rant/comment/leakage of feelings.
I really wish your mom would like... not think like your mom does? I don't know. She's just so skeptical and offensive all the time. She prowls for things to attack you with. It really makes me unhappy. It's like.. sure she loves you too but she really doesn't act like it (prime example when she was going to leave your room later in this post). And it's just not right. She's your mother! We both love you but I never want to see you hurt.
As far as the appointment for getting your braces off goes, I think she's somewhat justified... only not really. She is the head of her office. What head manager doesn't get one day off when she wants it weeks in advance? One who doesn't really care if she makes it to her daughter's important appointment or not I guess. Not trying to make you feel bad.. but I agree with you in the fact that she could've easily gotten off of work. I also feel like she should be okay with you wanting me, your boyfriend... your best friend, to be there when you got them off. (your smile is beautiful by the way... as always) And I kind of felt bad when she asked me who changed it and I told her that me and my mom did with your permission because she just didn't say anything for a while. I could tell she was upset or mad or something... but honestly... she didn't do anything to try and work it out anyway... so I don't really think I should feel that bad. After all... she says she wants to spend more time with you and be there for you with things like this, yet she doesn't make an effort when you put the ball in her hands (by telling her in advance) to do something. I didn't really let any of that get to me though. The radiance from your face and the happiness you were expelling throughout the entire room easily shook off any unpleasant feelings. <3. I love you so much.
And about the living together only after you're married thing is so right. I feel the same way. Honestly, it's not like a huge moral standard for me or anything; I'd flex to what you want, but I do feel like it's a really good idea. Living together before marriage would seem to take away the privilege(sp?) of it. It'd be like "Well... I've done this before... now we have it on paper." Of course it wouldn't be that bland... but for simplicity... yes. And from what Brian told me... it's pretty much your mom being sort of stuck up that they aren't married right now. I'll tell you what he told me later if you want... but I don't really see why she would have rejected his proposal(sp?) like that for what he did ( I don't fully understand the potency of what he said or how it ties into their relationship). Anyway... I didn't see it as any sort of direct attack on her relationship with Brian. I'm definitely on your side (with everything because I'm a good boy) but especially on this. She accuses you of so many petty crimes. It's ridiculous. And I don't feel like she should be upset just because she's led a life that isn't your dream. I'd never want to be like my father in many ways... that doesn't mean I dislike who he is and what he's got. I just think she's being immature about that entire situation. I feel like she never tries to access(sp?) any situation that could be controversial. It's so aggrivating. I've even wanted to just confront her several times but I never have because you said it'd only make things worse. I believe you.
You're not a slut! OMG that makes me so mad. We've been together for a year!!! (in like a day :P) And we've been best friends for longer than that! Us having sex is in no way, shape, or form slutty! *mad mad* Atleast we insanely love each other and plan our future together and are in it for the long run. It's not some "hit it and quit it" bullshit. I hate that. And shouldn't she be relieved that you have spermacide and condoms! I mean... Jeez! She says to never bring you back pregnant... why would she be upset about birth controling products!? So ridiculous! It's not like we have sex every time we're together anyway. She overly suspects everything. It's okay to speculate... but omg. And honestly... who does care if we fuck? I mean... is it really any of their business? I don't see how it is. I don't ask my parents about their sex life. I don't try to keep them under my thumb forever (yeah... I know their married and all of that... but still, the priciple of their sex life not being my business is the same). Ugh.
From her actions when I'm there and you telling me what happens when I'm not... I really just don't even care what she has to say much anymore. Atleast not on subjects related to these. She has such a negative message that just makes you not want to talk to her. Maybe you'd want to spend more time with her if she weren't always breathing down your neck and accusing you with every trivial thing she can. I don't know why she can't see that. She says she wants to spend time with you and she acts like she wants you out of her face. "lalala I'm just gonna walk out on my daughter when we've finally brought up some topics that I've been wanting to talk to her about" She's immature. I'm sorry if you're upset by my tone in this comment... but it's honestly how I feel. I just love you so much and it angers me that she acts like that toward you.
Only one more year anyway. We can rough it out. <3
You mean the world to me... and the universe... and anything that may possibly exist outside the boundries of the universe :p *chu* I love you~
One more year until I'm out of her sight and out from under her thumb... But how much longer until she gives me my freedom?
I feel like if you're going to be obviously upset, and then someone you're close to asks you what's wrong and you don't tell them, you just don't have the right to be so upset and to take it out on them later. That may sound a bit hypocritical, but I don't do that really. If I'm upset and I just don't want to talk about it, I always tell you after a few minutes, and if it's someone else, I may not tell them. but I'm not going to hold it against them when they show concern for me. So I can only care about yesterday the very smallest bit. It was her choice that prevented her from making it to my original appointment. She chose to go to work. And it doesn't make me feel bad. She's picked work over me on a few occasions. Not with any cruel intentions. She just doesn't give a lot of things the importance I feel like they deserve. She only thought this was important once she found out you were going. *sigh* I'm sure she thought it was important before that, she just didn't seem to care as much. Which I can understand. To an extent.
I understand how you feel... becuase it's the same way I feel. I don't feel bad about the appointment either. It was her choice and she did choose work over you. It just worked out for her this time. I can't wait to be on our own. I'd rather go through endless starting out on our own hardships with you than to deal this any longer. Being with you overrides everything. <3
BAM. i really just... i want to talk to your mom. there are so many things about her that confuse me so much. i just want to understand her. i just want to know the reasons behind who she is and what she does. i can do that with other people but your mom... ah! *shakes head* she makes me think and rethink myself so many times.
i dont understand her reasoning with the sex thing. "oh no i had sex with the man im gonna marry! wooaahh! look out man i totally use some hardcore birth control here so im NOT gonna get preggers yo!" ...word. i dont know what her problem could be when she knows you love him and knows youre being safe and knows youre not being a whore about it.
i just... augh. you know how i feel about judging people and treating them that way. i just cant respect people who are like that. i used to think your mom was really cool (that one time i met her for like 2 minutes) because she was the only parent of the gallery to not call me "alex". gbllahgh! but that was two years ago. and now... *sigh*
And me too. I would've talked to her mom if she'd let me. I doubt it'd ever do any good though. I feel like her mom's been that way forever and there's no changing it. Ehh... I love her mom but she's ridiculous sometimes.
Amen! She's so impossible with this whole sex thing. I could rant for years. I think I've said my main point up there though.
I never knew you met her mom o-o Weird. Where? *curious* Better yet... when?
BAM: me and axel were talking about this while we were gone. meaning while he was trying to sleep and i wasnt tired yet... really we talked about a lot of other personal stuff, male bonding and all...
oh wait! that actually originated from this! i told him about this whole deal and he said hed never had to deal with that (haha!) and asked what my mom ever thought about it. of course, she didnt find out right away, and by the time she did i was dealing with heartbreak, so like shed get mad anyway... i mean... we had the "okay, what if this girl is pregant?" talk. gosh. that scared me so bad! like... for a while i actually thought, "maybe shes not just a total bitch. maybe she found out shes pregnant. oh no! but its okay. ill help take care of the baby no matter what and she doesnt have to be afraid! <3" -_- like. someone, please. punch me in the face. but whatever. we talked about the possibility and i told her wed been as safe as we could have and all this crap that makes me SICK to think about right now so uh... im gonna stop now. but she was really just... not disapproving at all? and you know. my mother is a pruuuuude.
i told axel thats when i first got really close to my mom. id always let her in on everything about me, but that was when she started opening herself to me too. your stupid theories have their main root for me in that occurence...
after that was when i realized that i NEVER wanted to be ANYTHING like my mom. i love her and i think she is absolutely amazing, but she regrets too much. shes done sooo many things that i think are ridiculous, or that i disagree with or just think she shouldnt have. weve talked about that and she knows that and she doesnt mind. even if you do disapprove - i dissaprove of a lot of my moms choices - so what? youre entitled to your preferences and opinions. i disapprove of her choices. i love her. my thoughts on her decisions in life have little, if aything, to do with my opinion of her.
anyway. axel thought it was funny that the only time my moms ever found out about my sex life have beein when i was crying... so when all thaaaat happened you know... ah hem. a couple days later, she said shed noticed id been acting kind of funny and asked if everything was alright. so i said "mom, you know how all this has been going on?" "oh honey, whats going on there?" "well. we kind of had sex the other night." i die every time i think about that. her face fell open. there is no other way to describe it. her glasses almost fell off her face. she made this little rhaspy half-cough noise and her left eye squinted up and she shook her head a little like she was trying to comprehend. then she just looked down at the floor like that for a minute then scrunched her face up and shook her head and said "well. um. does that mean things are going well between you? *straightens glasses*" and i kind of laughed a little and said "no ma." and she was all "awww sweety <3" so then we talked about thaaat. she didnt disapprove at all. i mean. she was like "omgwtf" at first because it was just out of nowhere, but we talked for HOURS about it... like at least 5. im serious. and nothing about her was anything less than loving and supportive.
my love life is not even SLIGHTLY comparable to yours... but. theres my story.
well its not that my mom "found out"... neither time was after more than a week and both times it was just that it was time to tell her about it. my moms so naive, she could still be clueless. BAM said you just told your mom while she was doing laundry and she was like "oh duh." haha.
"stories". id hope you only have one... unless your mother has amnesia. (in which case im sorry.)
and... why? i dunno. i forgot what prompted me to say that.
the reason may be gone, but the respect is still there. *gorilla chest thump*
Hah! I know. It'd be so fun. I feel like we'd almost be like those restless little kids that run all around the house frollicking(sp!?) and chasing each other around while mommy is carrying a tray of fresh baked cookies. >->
Okay. Now to begin the rant/comment/leakage of feelings.
I really wish your mom would like... not think like your mom does? I don't know. She's just so skeptical and offensive all the time. She prowls for things to attack you with. It really makes me unhappy. It's like.. sure she loves you too but she really doesn't act like it (prime example when she was going to leave your room later in this post). And it's just not right. She's your mother! We both love you but I never want to see you hurt.
As far as the appointment for getting your braces off goes, I think she's somewhat justified... only not really. She is the head of her office. What head manager doesn't get one day off when she wants it weeks in advance? One who doesn't really care if she makes it to her daughter's important appointment or not I guess. Not trying to make you feel bad.. but I agree with you in the fact that she could've easily gotten off of work. I also feel like she should be okay with you wanting me, your boyfriend... your best friend, to be there when you got them off. (your smile is beautiful by the way... as always) And I kind of felt bad when she asked me who changed it and I told her that me and my mom did with your permission because she just didn't say anything for a while. I could tell she was upset or mad or something... but honestly... she didn't do anything to try and work it out anyway... so I don't really think I should feel that bad. After all... she says she wants to spend more time with you and be there for you with things like this, yet she doesn't make an effort when you put the ball in her hands (by telling her in advance) to do something. I didn't really let any of that get to me though. The radiance from your face and the happiness you were expelling throughout the entire room easily shook off any unpleasant feelings. <3. I love you so much.
And about the living together only after you're married thing is so right. I feel the same way. Honestly, it's not like a huge moral standard for me or anything; I'd flex to what you want, but I do feel like it's a really good idea. Living together before marriage would seem to take away the privilege(sp?) of it. It'd be like "Well... I've done this before... now we have it on paper." Of course it wouldn't be that bland... but for simplicity... yes. And from what Brian told me... it's pretty much your mom being sort of stuck up that they aren't married right now. I'll tell you what he told me later if you want... but I don't really see why she would have rejected his proposal(sp?) like that for what he did ( I don't fully understand the potency of what he said or how it ties into their relationship). Anyway... I didn't see it as any sort of direct attack on her relationship with Brian. I'm definitely on your side (with everything because I'm a good boy) but especially on this. She accuses you of so many petty crimes. It's ridiculous. And I don't feel like she should be upset just because she's led a life that isn't your dream. I'd never want to be like my father in many ways... that doesn't mean I dislike who he is and what he's got. I just think she's being immature about that entire situation. I feel like she never tries to access(sp?) any situation that could be controversial. It's so aggrivating. I've even wanted to just confront her several times but I never have because you said it'd only make things worse. I believe you.
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From her actions when I'm there and you telling me what happens when I'm not... I really just don't even care what she has to say much anymore. Atleast not on subjects related to these. She has such a negative message that just makes you not want to talk to her. Maybe you'd want to spend more time with her if she weren't always breathing down your neck and accusing you with every trivial thing she can. I don't know why she can't see that. She says she wants to spend time with you and she acts like she wants you out of her face. "lalala I'm just gonna walk out on my daughter when we've finally brought up some topics that I've been wanting to talk to her about" She's immature. I'm sorry if you're upset by my tone in this comment... but it's honestly how I feel. I just love you so much and it angers me that she acts like that toward you.
Only one more year anyway. We can rough it out. <3
You mean the world to me... and the universe... and anything that may possibly exist outside the boundries of the universe :p *chu*
I love you~
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I feel like if you're going to be obviously upset, and then someone you're close to asks you what's wrong and you don't tell them, you just don't have the right to be so upset and to take it out on them later. That may sound a bit hypocritical, but I don't do that really. If I'm upset and I just don't want to talk about it, I always tell you after a few minutes, and if it's someone else, I may not tell them. but I'm not going to hold it against them when they show concern for me. So I can only care about yesterday the very smallest bit. It was her choice that prevented her from making it to my original appointment. She chose to go to work. And it doesn't make me feel bad. She's picked work over me on a few occasions. Not with any cruel intentions. She just doesn't give a lot of things the importance I feel like they deserve. She only thought this was important once she found out you were going. *sigh* I'm sure she thought it was important before that, she just didn't seem to care as much. Which I can understand. To an extent.
I don't even know. v-v
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Really.
There's no life I could live without you with me.
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*chu* <3~
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BAM. i really just... i want to talk to your mom. there are so many things about her that confuse me so much. i just want to understand her. i just want to know the reasons behind who she is and what she does. i can do that with other people but your mom... ah! *shakes head* she makes me think and rethink myself so many times.
i dont understand her reasoning with the sex thing. "oh no i had sex with the man im gonna marry! wooaahh! look out man i totally use some hardcore birth control here so im NOT gonna get preggers yo!" ...word. i dont know what her problem could be when she knows you love him and knows youre being safe and knows youre not being a whore about it.
i just... augh. you know how i feel about judging people and treating them that way. i just cant respect people who are like that. i used to think your mom was really cool (that one time i met her for like 2 minutes) because she was the only parent of the gallery to not call me "alex". gbllahgh! but that was two years ago. and now... *sigh*
i love you BAM.
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And me too. I would've talked to her mom if she'd let me. I doubt it'd ever do any good though. I feel like her mom's been that way forever and there's no changing it. Ehh... I love her mom but she's ridiculous sometimes.
Amen! She's so impossible with this whole sex thing. I could rant for years. I think I've said my main point up there though.
I never knew you met her mom o-o Weird. Where? *curious* Better yet... when?
I love you Julie.
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BAM: me and axel were talking about this while we were gone. meaning while he was trying to sleep and i wasnt tired yet... really we talked about a lot of other personal stuff, male bonding and all...
oh wait! that actually originated from this! i told him about this whole deal and he said hed never had to deal with that (haha!) and asked what my mom ever thought about it. of course, she didnt find out right away, and by the time she did i was dealing with heartbreak, so like shed get mad anyway... i mean... we had the "okay, what if this girl is pregant?" talk. gosh. that scared me so bad! like... for a while i actually thought, "maybe shes not just a total bitch. maybe she found out shes pregnant. oh no! but its okay. ill help take care of the baby no matter what and she doesnt have to be afraid! <3" -_- like. someone, please. punch me in the face. but whatever. we talked about the possibility and i told her wed been as safe as we could have and all this crap that makes me SICK to think about right now so uh... im gonna stop now. but she was really just... not disapproving at all? and you know. my mother is a pruuuuude.
i told axel thats when i first got really close to my mom. id always let her in on everything about me, but that was when she started opening herself to me too. your stupid theories have their main root for me in that occurence...
after that was when i realized that i NEVER wanted to be ANYTHING like my mom. i love her and i think she is absolutely amazing, but she regrets too much. shes done sooo many things that i think are ridiculous, or that i disagree with or just think she shouldnt have. weve talked about that and she knows that and she doesnt mind. even if you do disapprove - i dissaprove of a lot of my moms choices - so what? youre entitled to your preferences and opinions. i disapprove of her choices. i love her. my thoughts on her decisions in life have little, if aything, to do with my opinion of her.
anyway. axel thought it was funny that the only time my moms ever found out about my sex life have beein when i was crying... so when all thaaaat happened you know... ah hem. a couple days later, she said shed noticed id been acting kind of funny and asked if everything was alright. so i said "mom, you know how all this has been going on?" "oh honey, whats going on there?" "well. we kind of had sex the other night." i die every time i think about that. her face fell open. there is no other way to describe it. her glasses almost fell off her face. she made this little rhaspy half-cough noise and her left eye squinted up and she shook her head a little like she was trying to comprehend. then she just looked down at the floor like that for a minute then scrunched her face up and shook her head and said "well. um. does that mean things are going well between you? *straightens glasses*" and i kind of laughed a little and said "no ma." and she was all "awww sweety <3" so then we talked about thaaat. she didnt disapprove at all. i mean. she was like "omgwtf" at first because it was just out of nowhere, but we talked for HOURS about it... like at least 5. im serious. and nothing about her was anything less than loving and supportive.
my love life is not even SLIGHTLY comparable to yours... but. theres my story.
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word.
for. *coughs*
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What caused you to have more respect for me?
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"stories". id hope you only have one... unless your mother has amnesia. (in which case im sorry.)
and... why? i dunno. i forgot what prompted me to say that.
the reason may be gone, but the respect is still there. *gorilla chest thump*
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And my mom's very open, accepting, and supportive. That's why I'm never really obligated to tell her anything. Julie should live with me ^^
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just kidding ^_^ i think that would be cute. much sitcom action would ensure...
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