(8) Tempted I must confess, but i better not make a mess
I've been very private lately...
My use of this LJ have been VERY often...almost everyday
it's just that i've been putting a few on "friends-only" and a lot that are just private, for me only...
...meh!
ME!!! =D
So, my birthday's coming up in 1 month and 1day! sah-weeet!
FINALLY FUCKING LEGAL! it's about goddamn time!
i get so nervous when i go out w/ ppl with their 19-year old IDs n then there i am....a random 22 year old...(ID-wise that is lol)
n it's awesome how my birthday falls on a Friday this year! talk about perfect!
I'm still not too sure where i'm gunna go for it though...i got a bit of time i guess
i'm excited none-the-less!!
Work Work Work
ou, i'm at work right now...at the Ministry of Health...
we're ridiculiously slow today....i don't even know what to do.
we haven't had ONE specimen to test alllll day yet....and it's already 11!
usually i'd of done AT LEAST 5ish...
but this work ends at 4:15....then tonight i have work at ALDO 5-10
i'm getting burnt out! LOL it's exhausting....but whatevez.
speaking of ALDO...we had a group interview yesterday.
...
stupid newbies.
lol, kidding....there's this one girl i really liked....i hope we get her! (:
AND NO ASIANS WERE THERE!!!! YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i really do enjoy being the token asian at aldo!
my coworkers call me "Asian" (: hahahahaha
and they said if they hire another asian i'd have to be called "Asian-senior".....HELLLLLLLZ NAW!!!!!!!!
unless it's an asian boy....cause then they'd call me "Asian-girl" and i'm cool with that. HAHA
FAMILY
It was my cousins' birthdays yesterday...it was so good seeing some of my cousins again
To be honest, i think I'm the only one outta the cousins who's emotionally retarded with all our family problems
or maybe they are too...but just don't show it....and i don't either really
I don't think there will EVER be an occasion where all 12 Bangcaya cousins will be together.
Even at my debut...only 11 of us were there.
it breaks my heart a lot =(
and i'm not gunna lie...I'm bitter at the family i always see....who exiled my uncle, THEIR FUCKING BROTHER over STUPID FAMILY DRAMA
...which in turn means, we (the cousins) NEVER get to see our other cousin.
I'd really rather see my one uncle more often than i see all my other aunts/uncles....because they're punks. -sigh- =(
and it's so sad...cause when all the cousins were in a room yesterday i said it aloud:
"it's just sad....i don't think we're ever gunna get a picture with ALL the Bangcaya cousins"
and they were just looking at me with, 'what do you mean?' expressions on their face
and i was like "I mean...everyone!....INCLUDING Marcel..."
and my 10-year old cousin was like "who's that?"
...i didn't even know what to say. "who's that"??!!? ...wow.
Marcel's turning 3 this December, and some of my cousins don't even know who he is.
I'm not gunna lie...i have a SHITLOAD of resentment towards my Bangcaya side of the family.
...and a little bit of shame to have to say i carry Bangcaya blood.
You
...i don't really think my feelings for you were ever really genuine.
it was just kinda the thrill of what was going on
and how you were COMPLETELY off limits for me
and for me personally, because i LOVE challenges...
it was A LOT of the fact that i wanted to...i guess....
"win"
but....to be honest....if there WAS a chance...
...i don't think i could
because at that point i'd of already known that i won.
and the thrill would be over.
My use of this LJ have been VERY often...almost everyday
it's just that i've been putting a few on "friends-only" and a lot that are just private, for me only...
...meh!
ME!!! =D
So, my birthday's coming up in 1 month and 1day! sah-weeet!
FINALLY FUCKING LEGAL! it's about goddamn time!
i get so nervous when i go out w/ ppl with their 19-year old IDs n then there i am....a random 22 year old...(ID-wise that is lol)
n it's awesome how my birthday falls on a Friday this year! talk about perfect!
I'm still not too sure where i'm gunna go for it though...i got a bit of time i guess
i'm excited none-the-less!!
Work Work Work
ou, i'm at work right now...at the Ministry of Health...
we're ridiculiously slow today....i don't even know what to do.
we haven't had ONE specimen to test alllll day yet....and it's already 11!
usually i'd of done AT LEAST 5ish...
but this work ends at 4:15....then tonight i have work at ALDO 5-10
i'm getting burnt out! LOL it's exhausting....but whatevez.
speaking of ALDO...we had a group interview yesterday.
...
stupid newbies.
lol, kidding....there's this one girl i really liked....i hope we get her! (:
AND NO ASIANS WERE THERE!!!! YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i really do enjoy being the token asian at aldo!
my coworkers call me "Asian" (: hahahahaha
and they said if they hire another asian i'd have to be called "Asian-senior".....HELLLLLLLZ NAW!!!!!!!!
unless it's an asian boy....cause then they'd call me "Asian-girl" and i'm cool with that. HAHA
FAMILY
It was my cousins' birthdays yesterday...it was so good seeing some of my cousins again
To be honest, i think I'm the only one outta the cousins who's emotionally retarded with all our family problems
or maybe they are too...but just don't show it....and i don't either really
I don't think there will EVER be an occasion where all 12 Bangcaya cousins will be together.
Even at my debut...only 11 of us were there.
it breaks my heart a lot =(
and i'm not gunna lie...I'm bitter at the family i always see....who exiled my uncle, THEIR FUCKING BROTHER over STUPID FAMILY DRAMA
...which in turn means, we (the cousins) NEVER get to see our other cousin.
I'd really rather see my one uncle more often than i see all my other aunts/uncles....because they're punks. -sigh- =(
and it's so sad...cause when all the cousins were in a room yesterday i said it aloud:
"it's just sad....i don't think we're ever gunna get a picture with ALL the Bangcaya cousins"
and they were just looking at me with, 'what do you mean?' expressions on their face
and i was like "I mean...everyone!....INCLUDING Marcel..."
and my 10-year old cousin was like "who's that?"
...i didn't even know what to say. "who's that"??!!? ...wow.
Marcel's turning 3 this December, and some of my cousins don't even know who he is.
I'm not gunna lie...i have a SHITLOAD of resentment towards my Bangcaya side of the family.
...and a little bit of shame to have to say i carry Bangcaya blood.
You
...i don't really think my feelings for you were ever really genuine.
it was just kinda the thrill of what was going on
and how you were COMPLETELY off limits for me
and for me personally, because i LOVE challenges...
it was A LOT of the fact that i wanted to...i guess....
"win"
but....to be honest....if there WAS a chance...
...i don't think i could
because at that point i'd of already known that i won.
and the thrill would be over.