Love it or hate it....at 18, the woman knows who she is.
So it’s been brought to my attention that i’ve “changed” and not necessarily for the better.
I’m not going to disagree...yes, i have changed. I’m growing up. I will constantly be changing for the next few years. However, to say i’ve changed for the worse...i beg to differ.
See...the thing is, in the aspects that have been brought to my attention...i haven’t changed in those ways. I was and still am a huge flirt, and i know it. And this is where me agreeing that i’ve changed comes into play. I’m growing up. Grown and sexy, feel me? I’m not that insecure 14 year old girl i used to be. I’m more confident with my body. I know how to position my legs when i’m standing, and how to buy my jeans so that it flatters my ass! I’ve changed to be aware of who i am physically, and i use that to my advantage. Is that a bad thing? Hell no! What, cause i’m comfortable in my own skin?? Is it really a bad thing that i don’t feel as insecure as i used to be? Is it bad that i never find myself wishing that “my body looked like that”?? Definitely not. My skirts may be shorter at times, my neckline may have a very deep dip...but that doesn’t mean i’m changing for the worst. What i’m able to prove by doing that is that i’m hella confident in who i am. I’m completely aware of what i’m capable of doing, and whom i’m capable of attracting. So if becoming comfortable and confident in yourself and accepting who you’ve physically become is changing for the worst...then i guess i AM guilty.
You may see me in a different light, but what would you expect? That i’d live my life with my 14-year old mentality? You’re gunna change in your life...your light is going to turn a different shade, it’s inevitable. I’m changing so much it’s ridiculous. I’m a grown woman now. I’m living my life, set on a path to achieve my CAREER. I’m not in highschool anymore, trying to figure out “what i want in life”. I KNOW what i want. And i’m working my ass off to achieve that. I’m getting my first taste of independence by living on residence, which was a HUGE change, and it’s up to me to be able to handle the party scene and my school work. And i’m handling it. My fashion sense has definitely changed, for the MUCH better. I’ve found a job that i absolutely LOVE, and working on the regular was a big change for me. Now, i’m making money completely on my own ~ independence. There’s so much more about me that has changed. But for the worse? no.
I’m able to make critical decisions on my own = I’m growing up, my mentality has matured.
My confidence has sky rocketed. Since when was insecurity sexy anyways?
I’m gaining independence. I’m becoming my own person. I’m cutting any strings attached.
I’m handling multiple situations being thrown at me on my own.
I’m making my money
I KNOW what i want.
I’m working on my CAREER.
I still don't see where i've changed for the worse...
I’ve changed in all the right ways.
i already know that some people reading this will think i’m sooo goddamn conceited.
but whatever, if you’d rather turn the positive into the negative, do it. If you’re determined that change is such a bad thing...just know that this is how you’re choosing to live out your own life. It’s like ignoring an opportunity because you’re scared of taking a risk. But that’s life baby, you need to take what you’re given and make it your own.
And I’ve been able to do that.
I’m not going to disagree...yes, i have changed. I’m growing up. I will constantly be changing for the next few years. However, to say i’ve changed for the worse...i beg to differ.
See...the thing is, in the aspects that have been brought to my attention...i haven’t changed in those ways. I was and still am a huge flirt, and i know it. And this is where me agreeing that i’ve changed comes into play. I’m growing up. Grown and sexy, feel me? I’m not that insecure 14 year old girl i used to be. I’m more confident with my body. I know how to position my legs when i’m standing, and how to buy my jeans so that it flatters my ass! I’ve changed to be aware of who i am physically, and i use that to my advantage. Is that a bad thing? Hell no! What, cause i’m comfortable in my own skin?? Is it really a bad thing that i don’t feel as insecure as i used to be? Is it bad that i never find myself wishing that “my body looked like that”?? Definitely not. My skirts may be shorter at times, my neckline may have a very deep dip...but that doesn’t mean i’m changing for the worst. What i’m able to prove by doing that is that i’m hella confident in who i am. I’m completely aware of what i’m capable of doing, and whom i’m capable of attracting. So if becoming comfortable and confident in yourself and accepting who you’ve physically become is changing for the worst...then i guess i AM guilty.
You may see me in a different light, but what would you expect? That i’d live my life with my 14-year old mentality? You’re gunna change in your life...your light is going to turn a different shade, it’s inevitable. I’m changing so much it’s ridiculous. I’m a grown woman now. I’m living my life, set on a path to achieve my CAREER. I’m not in highschool anymore, trying to figure out “what i want in life”. I KNOW what i want. And i’m working my ass off to achieve that. I’m getting my first taste of independence by living on residence, which was a HUGE change, and it’s up to me to be able to handle the party scene and my school work. And i’m handling it. My fashion sense has definitely changed, for the MUCH better. I’ve found a job that i absolutely LOVE, and working on the regular was a big change for me. Now, i’m making money completely on my own ~ independence. There’s so much more about me that has changed. But for the worse? no.
I’m able to make critical decisions on my own = I’m growing up, my mentality has matured.
My confidence has sky rocketed. Since when was insecurity sexy anyways?
I’m gaining independence. I’m becoming my own person. I’m cutting any strings attached.
I’m handling multiple situations being thrown at me on my own.
I’m making my money
I KNOW what i want.
I’m working on my CAREER.
I still don't see where i've changed for the worse...
I’ve changed in all the right ways.
i already know that some people reading this will think i’m sooo goddamn conceited.
but whatever, if you’d rather turn the positive into the negative, do it. If you’re determined that change is such a bad thing...just know that this is how you’re choosing to live out your own life. It’s like ignoring an opportunity because you’re scared of taking a risk. But that’s life baby, you need to take what you’re given and make it your own.
And I’ve been able to do that.