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i joined this childofinsainity community...and i got accepted, then i left. coz it's just...too MANY DAMN RULES. and the moderator spelled insanity wrong>.O.
you know... i wish my mother could understand me better. i know the two of us has this close relationship ...but she just doesn't understand on how i'm having difficulty in my life right now. when i tell her my problems, she'd give that "get over it" attitude. so, it's really hard to open up to her. it's cool that we can talk about things like...how hot hugh jackman is...how we talk about and criticize guys like giggling teens...you know, she's like sharon osbourne in a way. but she expects me to be like her... ...a fighter in a way. she's been through a lot of things and she got over that. she's been telling me that her life is more difficult than mine... and i know that, but it's just...i'm not like her. i can't handle these certain things the way she does. and one of the things i hate the most about her is that she uses that guilt trip to mess up my mind. and it works most of the times. i really do need help...and i need someone to talk to...someone beside me...who's willing to understand...someone who's actually in THIS DAMN COUNTRY. ..and i just wish that person is my mom. but it's not. every time i express on how stress i am, she always says that she's more stressed...that she had worse. *sigh*...it's not really the kind of person i would like to open up to. i need her not to criticize or judge me or compare herself to me...i just need her to understand and comfort me...
and it seems i'm getting better(physically)...so i have to go to school tomorrow. i don't really care anymore... i just wish that this high school year would be over.
you know... i wish my mother could understand me better. i know the two of us has this close relationship ...but she just doesn't understand on how i'm having difficulty in my life right now. when i tell her my problems, she'd give that "get over it" attitude. so, it's really hard to open up to her. it's cool that we can talk about things like...how hot hugh jackman is...how we talk about and criticize guys like giggling teens...you know, she's like sharon osbourne in a way. but she expects me to be like her... ...a fighter in a way. she's been through a lot of things and she got over that. she's been telling me that her life is more difficult than mine... and i know that, but it's just...i'm not like her. i can't handle these certain things the way she does. and one of the things i hate the most about her is that she uses that guilt trip to mess up my mind. and it works most of the times. i really do need help...and i need someone to talk to...someone beside me...who's willing to understand...someone who's actually in THIS DAMN COUNTRY. ..and i just wish that person is my mom. but it's not. every time i express on how stress i am, she always says that she's more stressed...that she had worse. *sigh*...it's not really the kind of person i would like to open up to. i need her not to criticize or judge me or compare herself to me...i just need her to understand and comfort me...
and it seems i'm getting better(physically)...so i have to go to school tomorrow. i don't really care anymore... i just wish that this high school year would be over.