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I graduated today.
I have been trying to think why I get myself so cought up in drama which is spread around me. Truthfully I cant think of any other reason, then I bring it upon myself.
And whats worse, is that I have yet to figure out a reason as to why I use livejournal. Its fucking sickening.
My birthday is tomorrow. Yes, thats right, in approcamately(sp?) 8 hours I will have been born 18 years ago. Yes. 18. Not 19, nor 20, or 21, 22 or even 23 as I have been assumed. My birthday is not the 23rd, it is the 24th thank you very much.
I suppose you could say I am somewhat shy of my age. Perhaps its because I am dating (if thats what you call it?) someone who is 4 years older then me. And because I dont act like alot of people my age I dont feel like I should be the age in which I am.Older. Then people assume I am older because of the fact that I dont tell people, I just let them assume. I agree with whatever they thing I am. Because age to me really doesent mean much.
Did that even make sence? I dont dare answer that.
Will I be any different next year? Probably. I find myself changing constantly. I suppose having the problems I do doesent help. I am trying so hard to fix all of the messes I have gotten myself into subcontiously. Its so fucking hard.
I say things I dont realize I have said, until I get told them. Then I cant say I dident say them because I dont know if I might have. And THEN I cant give a reason why to, or with what evidance. Its driving me nuts. I hate being who I am.
The other day I posted a picture of me, but here are a couple better ones.
I know, I am a cam-slut. But hey, atleast being 18 makes in legal.