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I cant belive how uddlerly depressed I have become.
I mean I should be happy, today I finished my last day of High school..ever.
But to be honest. I am not happy.
There are a plethora of reasons why. I am so selfish, I shouldent be worring about feeling like shit. But I have too.
My life is so fucking bland, all I do is work. Even the people I thought of as friends never even attempt to contact me, save one.
It seems everyone has an idea of what they want to do, what they want to be. Where as I am stuck here working what is now 1 minimum wage job, living at home and being lead on by everyone. Including the people I care about.
But if I moved away what would happen? I would be sucked into the same problem I have now. Only I wouldent have ANYONE to fall back on... not that I really do now, accept of course my mother, when she decideds to stay home.
It compounds the situation that I am sick.
I mean I should be happy, today I finished my last day of High school..ever.
But to be honest. I am not happy.
There are a plethora of reasons why. I am so selfish, I shouldent be worring about feeling like shit. But I have too.
My life is so fucking bland, all I do is work. Even the people I thought of as friends never even attempt to contact me, save one.
It seems everyone has an idea of what they want to do, what they want to be. Where as I am stuck here working what is now 1 minimum wage job, living at home and being lead on by everyone. Including the people I care about.
But if I moved away what would happen? I would be sucked into the same problem I have now. Only I wouldent have ANYONE to fall back on... not that I really do now, accept of course my mother, when she decideds to stay home.
It compounds the situation that I am sick.