hopeless love..
i'm in a really.. out-of-it mood.. mostly because i keep thinking about how sad my love life is.. ha just thinkin about it makes me laugh at myself. i hate guys, really i do. but then why do i feel like i need the attention of one to be at peace? why must we define ourselves by what others think of us? can't we be happy on our own? or must we depend on another for our freedom of actually being 'ourselves'? i really can't make up my mind about who i want to be. i mean, duh, i'm jacey.. but sometimes i feel that's not good enough, for even the people whom are closest to me. if you could, would you have me any other way? tomorrow's my last day of assist.. then i get to go back to school - yay! i miss everyone.. but i forget my schedule.. if you see me and i'm wandering aimlessly and i happen to be in your next class - please direct me. thanks<33