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I have an awful headache. I just don't feel real anymore. I've been trying to live a movie, a story, a book, a something that just isn't real. I've been playing 'pretend' and fairy tales. I think that if I just sit and wait and hope, everything I want will happen/come to me. I plan and plan and plan, and then just figure, well if this is what I think, then of course it will happen. My future is awesome, because I've planned it out. I've planned who is going to be there, and who is going to wait, and who is going to be gone. That isn't real. Nothing's real. I'm not fuckin real anymore.
... I have an awful awful headache.