Sep 08, 2006 17:32
I'm really glad I came back, however long this may last. I like it a lot because, I'm pretty sure no one reads this, which means I'm doing it for myself and there's no alterior motives behind anything that's written. The second is that anyone who wants is able to read it, so I'm opening myself up to the world. That's a pretty good feeling.
It seems that I went from being overly emotional, to the opposite. I've gotten to the point now where things that should faze me don't, and I'm not heavily affected by much. This often gives people the wrong impression of how I truly feel, and gives them a sense of carlessness. I've also noticed that I'm very fickle about my emotions. I can be very set in something, and then completely change how I feel. In one case, especially, it seems like I have my mind set and made up about someone, and then when I'm with them my perspective changes. It sucks. It makes me feel like I can't trust myself.
Again...I don't have much to complain about. With complete honesty I can say things are going well with me.
In other news...I got a new job today. I went in about 4, talked to Travis. Had some wonderful mint green tea. Filled a 185 questionarre. Talked to a very sarcastic man...and ended up with a new job. Orientation at the Olive Garden is on the ninteenth. I'm excited about it. Especially that I'm done at Stuff Etc., the place I have dubbed the worst on earth.
Another uninteresting bit of news. I've started martial arts training again. I don't think I'm going to do anymore underground tournaments, because they're bad news. But I might do some real ones, and it'll be fun to get back into the swing of things. I need something to occupy myself when I'm not playing music.
Watch out for that fickle emotions thing...
I have a commentary for my current music.
I think this is the most romanticly triumphant song I've ever heard. Everytime I hear it, I get the chills, and I tear up. I remember the first time I heard it, I got to about 8 minutes in and started balling uncontrollably. Who knew that instruments could do that to a person. It's one of few songs over ten minutes that I wish were longer.
School seems SO insignificant at this point. I'm beyond not caring (if that's possible). I go there, and it seems right away it's over. Only about 46 of those or so left. Then it's off in to the great unknown.
I've been overly ambitious lately with the whole being on the verge of playing in three bands lately, but it always seems that I'm looking out for opportunities to play. This has happened before. It can be quite overwhelming. Yet quite amazing.
...maybe one day I'll run out of emotions to express in that medium. I can't see that happening, though.
If you've made it this far in the entry, I commend you. You're either very bored, or care a lot about the boring things that happen in my life, and my silly ramblings. Either way, thanks for coming.
I've given up hate, like I said last entry. And it's really freeing. It's going well for me so far. I've also stopped discriminating. Well...there is an exception. Bugs. Whether or not they get killed depends on their looks.
I have lame entries.
But at least they're honest and informative.