;
{somewhat} active: indefinitely sealed & private
I was drawn to all the wrong things: I liked to drink, I was lazy,
I didn’t have a god, politics, ideas, ideals. I was settled into nothingness;
a kind of non-being, and I accepted it. I didn’t make for an interesting person.
I didn’t want to be interesting, it was too hard. What I really wanted was only
a soft, hazy space to live in, and to be left alone.
"I feel stupid."
"Good; you should"