a crying shame

[secsixlikewhoa]

when people feel like they must write something down to get it out of them. Like its going anywhere, like these letters and this paper are some kind of disposal, as if you could reach into your ear and pull the messy shit out. if only. but i still cant do it. I cant write anymore, and it makes me feel sick. it isn't even that i don't want to. I think about writing a lot. Its just that everything i write down just feels horribly wrong to say. like that for example. Well I'm giving up to myself. I barely talk to people anymore, so writing is probably the next best thing to keep my sanity. Its not that i don't want to talk to people, i just feel as if I'm repeating myself all the time. Giving in my two bits when the bits were from two weeks ago. Soiled from lint and dirt inside a child's pocket. I want to give the people something fresh. Some new currency
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