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Not the typical tradgedy
What did I do?
I thought this was supposed to be for the better
All I’m feeling
Is the worst I’ve ever felt
This isn’t fair
Not what I was doing to you
Not just that
This isn’t fair even now
What was meant to be for the better
Turned out to be the worst decision I’ve ever made
I didn’t want to leave
I never wanted to
I wasn’t planning on it
For some reason
I thought that this would help
Who was I kidding?
How ignorant do I have to be
To think something so stupid
So misleading
So judgmental
I can’t take back the mistake I’ve just committed
No matter how hard I try
I cant reverse those tears we cried
I cant forget the burn inside
I don’t want this to be the end
This isn’t fair for either of us
For some reason I believed the voices on the outside
For some reason I was blind to what we had
I knew what we had, I never forgot
So what made me so stupid?
What made me believe such a dumb thing?
I cant stop crying for you
You know you’ve made a mistake
When you can’t stop crying for what you’ve done
You know you’ve made a mistake
When the only name that comes to mind is that of your love you left behind
This wasn’t meant to turn on me like this
If anything you were supposed to be the beneficiary in this whole mess
I was losing either way
I couldn’t win
What I was doing was a selfish act
I couldn’t keep you for myself forever
Time is too cruel to reward me with something like that
It’s ironic how life tics on
The gears inside turn without notice
Causing every second to tick without me
Sometimes I wish that I can decide whether time goes on or not
Like that one night I was with you
If it were up to me, we’d still be there
Fingers laced
Holding each other close to keep warm
I remember that night
I’m more than unworthy to have been with you like I was
Though for some reason
You chose me instead of many others
There are things I’ve done that I regret doing
Things that dented your trust
I can’t take those times back, or else I would
All those tears you’ve cried
I’d take those back if I could
Those scars I’ve caused, wouldn’t be there if I had a say
Which is why I have to say good-bye for now
I’ve been realizing lately this distance is killing us
I’ve noticed that time can be murder
You’ve been hurting because of me, and now I have the chance
The chance to take back what I’ve done
By saying good-bye until next time
Next time I’ll be there for you
Next time you’ll smile and we’ll be together
Next time we’ll be ready for anything
I cant stand this for much longer
This is a selfish act
Trying to keep you for me, isn’t the right thing to do
The voices are making sense
When they tell me this wouldn’t have worked out
Not if we would have kept this going how it was then
I hope you know, I don’t want this to be the end
There will be a next time, and when that next time comes
I’ll be able to dry those tears
I’ll be able to kiss those scars
Best of all, I’ll be there for you
Everyday
Forever, and a day
What did I do?
I thought this was supposed to be for the better
All I’m feeling
Is the worst I’ve ever felt
This isn’t fair
Not what I was doing to you
Not just that
This isn’t fair even now
What was meant to be for the better
Turned out to be the worst decision I’ve ever made
I didn’t want to leave
I never wanted to
I wasn’t planning on it
For some reason
I thought that this would help
Who was I kidding?
How ignorant do I have to be
To think something so stupid
So misleading
So judgmental
I can’t take back the mistake I’ve just committed
No matter how hard I try
I cant reverse those tears we cried
I cant forget the burn inside
I don’t want this to be the end
This isn’t fair for either of us
For some reason I believed the voices on the outside
For some reason I was blind to what we had
I knew what we had, I never forgot
So what made me so stupid?
What made me believe such a dumb thing?
I cant stop crying for you
You know you’ve made a mistake
When you can’t stop crying for what you’ve done
You know you’ve made a mistake
When the only name that comes to mind is that of your love you left behind
This wasn’t meant to turn on me like this
If anything you were supposed to be the beneficiary in this whole mess
I was losing either way
I couldn’t win
What I was doing was a selfish act
I couldn’t keep you for myself forever
Time is too cruel to reward me with something like that
It’s ironic how life tics on
The gears inside turn without notice
Causing every second to tick without me
Sometimes I wish that I can decide whether time goes on or not
Like that one night I was with you
If it were up to me, we’d still be there
Fingers laced
Holding each other close to keep warm
I remember that night
I’m more than unworthy to have been with you like I was
Though for some reason
You chose me instead of many others
There are things I’ve done that I regret doing
Things that dented your trust
I can’t take those times back, or else I would
All those tears you’ve cried
I’d take those back if I could
Those scars I’ve caused, wouldn’t be there if I had a say
Which is why I have to say good-bye for now
I’ve been realizing lately this distance is killing us
I’ve noticed that time can be murder
You’ve been hurting because of me, and now I have the chance
The chance to take back what I’ve done
By saying good-bye until next time
Next time I’ll be there for you
Next time you’ll smile and we’ll be together
Next time we’ll be ready for anything
I cant stand this for much longer
This is a selfish act
Trying to keep you for me, isn’t the right thing to do
The voices are making sense
When they tell me this wouldn’t have worked out
Not if we would have kept this going how it was then
I hope you know, I don’t want this to be the end
There will be a next time, and when that next time comes
I’ll be able to dry those tears
I’ll be able to kiss those scars
Best of all, I’ll be there for you
Everyday
Forever, and a day